Monday Evening Meditation
Swirling in an everchanging complex organism we hook ourselves to the matrix and hang on for dear life
My last (and final) husband, the one in Bali, might miss my presence, but he'll recover. He can grow some rice and relax. We'll write when mail service is established.
I'm an Aries with an Aries rising, as you know, and I'm always up for a new adventure. My Venus in Taurus likes comfort, but I'll have a cozy nest in no time. I can't wait to see what kind of eggs Zelda will be laying. She's high-strung and unpredictable.
Early man didn't understand the universe, and he turned to prediction to try and control his fear and confusion. As he slowly gained knowledge, he had less need to find control, so astrology broadened into other areas of usage, until modern times, where it is becoming a tool for understanding the self.
I don't think it's coincidence that the dwarf planet Pluto is in the galactic center of our Milky Way with the discovery of life in outer space. It's as though a slot has opened and we are being beamed in and contacted, in the expansive, friendly, seeking sign of Sagittarius, who wants to know what it's all about and who's there. The battle between Jupiter (Sagittarius) and Pluto goes a long way back. And now they are meeting each other. Big pow wow. A great moment, as the lord of the earth and the lord of the underworld come together. Brothers forever.
This is the first time humankind has encountered the conditions in space for life as we know it on earth. It's not a politician, a Hollywood type movie star, nor a popular singer that's contacting us, so people have brushed it off, preferring the daily boxing match in the sports arena and the bloodbath in the desert. The scientific community has not done so, however.
What is most fascinating is what Pluto has done in this last moment in Sagittarius for 248 years. He has diminished his power by relinquishing his status as a planet. Pluto used to stand at Death's door guarding the end of our solar system. No wonder we were afraid. But as he has stepped down, the door just opened to reveal more life. No surprise that Pluto should drop this tidbit of information just before he leaves the galactic core in his new position.
What's also interesting is the Aries-Scorpio new-full Moons right now. Aries is exploration and new frontiers, and Scorpio is ruled by Pluto. More impetus in this first time event. Added to that, is the conjunction of the Aries planet, Mars, with Uranus (insight, science, knowledge, and the unexpected) in Pisces (the universe) exactly when the information was revealed. This tells us something about the Uranus in Aries coming up soon and what it might bring in terms of innovation and discovery. We've probably seen next to nothing yet.
I have always been convinced that the change in status of Pluto was significant. My view is that fear will gradually diminish as we step beyond this lord of Death to recognize the infinite nature of life. We weren't ready until now. Of course, it will take time for many astrologers to catch up and realize that Pluto is not exactly all about extreme pain and destruction, and death something to be avoided at all costs. He's still spooky, of course, but I wouldn't want to take that away from him. Nope. Part of his charm.
The terror of the terrorists, the government, Big Brother, the New World Order, and all assorted conspiracies is rising once again. The ever out-of-control victim is doomed as usual. All predictable. I just read an article about the infiltration of criminals into our very own government and the scare tactics, but who's foolin' who? The author was expressing nothing but terror.
This terror is a natural part of everyday life, and no more than it ever was. All people in history have thought the same thing .... that they are in the worst, most dangerous time yet. This is a complete fallacy. The fear of the New World Order and global demise is exactly what the creators want. They are nowhere near as powerful as some insist. These poor victims are projecting their personal fears, and for some reason, want others to tremble too.
Courage, confidence, and will. The fearlessness that defines Aries is at its best in the NN. Intimidation by others or feeling beholden to them has grown useless, since these demands and desires are out of synchronization with the Aries NN's destiny. Once he establishes his solo path, a newfound belief in his abilities emerges with great impact. He knows he can do anything if he decides to do it. The world bends to his demands as people recognize the force they are encountering. When he takes charge, things work out not only for himself, but everyone in his realm.
Leadership. At first it can be terrifying for these nodeholders to lead individuals, not wanting to be responsible for any misfortune that comes their way. But after years of seeing them constantly misled, some feel the urge to step in and take over, rather than watch the group sink under faulty guidance. There is frequently a purity to the Aries fire that people trust. He maintains dominance not by punishing or belittling the people he's leading, but by clear directed action, arousing them to follow. He might not be a great administrator or a cooperative part of a complex system, but the job of leading others out of danger, or to an improved situation, is his. He has the confidence if he doesn't slip and get misled himself. The world moves ahead in his care, although he might choose to remain solo and leave the group entirely behind.
Honesty. One of the finest traits of this nodeholder is his honesty. He sees the pretense all around him and remembers well the need to compromise the truth in order to gain approval. He is now ready to abandon this practice and fully express his likes and dislikes no matter what the consequences. The freedom to be his genuine self is one of his greatest joys, and other people are often entranced by the clear light that emanates from his eyes and his refreshing ability to tell it exactly like it is.
An individual who has mastered the curriculum laid out by Saturn knows the difference between right and wrong. If he suffers, he should have at least some idea why. This moral and ethical seasoning confers the power to function as an authority in the social system. Presumably, he is fit to govern others because he has proven the ability to govern himself.And here we stand. Nearing the end of the Saturn transit of Leo as the last direct motion has begun and this dense planet will be leaving for Virgo on September 2nd. Two and a half years of intense ego development, lessons of power, dominance and leadership, realization of creative talent, and the search for significance, personally and collectively.
Saturn signifies the completion of the building of a distinctive ego structure. The individual now acts in his own right and imposes on his surroundings the order he has labored to internalize. He is capable of shaping society as society originally shaped him. Through the upholding of accepted laws, he ensures the continuity of the community so that, although he eventually dies, civilization endures as a monument to his endeavors.
Marcia Moore and Mark Douglas
Saturn often erects a wall while the work is going on, and once construction is complete, and the system can function successfully, the wall comes down. The effective governing begins. Every individual is at a slightly different stage of evolution, and for some, now is the time to recognize the needs, and start to prepare to take the lead in whatever realm is indicated. Leo and the Sun are at the center of a system in some way, somewhere. Everyone has a Leo sector in the chart, where Saturn has been training us. When he goes into Virgo, it will be time to get to work.
These last sweet moments can be fruitful and in this case, the stuff of dreams, since Neptune will be involved until the end. Evaluation of abilities and establishment of genuine confidence can proceed. Many people fail at good leadership because of a lack of true self confidence. Love of self translates into love of others, and into love of the world. And even if the spotlight is small in radius, each individual has a part to play, and will likely take the lead at times.
In terms of our own government it has been astonishing to observe the collapse unfolding. The incompetence, corruption, and deceit revealed in full light of day. Faulty leadership. Unsalvageable. Many of them are of the Pluto in Leo generation, and have been particularly influenced by this Saturn transit of Leo.
The Pluto in Leos are interesting. The infinity of desire in its sometimes ruthless pursuit of attention and domination, masking feelings of unlovability, is common with this placement. The magnitude of need is really impossible to describe. Saturn has put the clamp on this, at the same time, has been developing potential elsewhere. It's happening especially with the new environmentalists who are starting to emerge with dignity, style, and even power. They will grow and join their immature, greedy, and grasping compatriots, as Pluto in Capricorn orders. It will all be interesting to witness. Even though the common denominator remains at a less than magnificent level and will continue to do so, enjoying the grade B crime and horror show, the best of humanity will also play a part, perhaps with some added recognition.
So as Saturn chooses ones who have learned, some people will feel the responsibility to contribute as Pluto goes into Capricorn to specifically evolutionize society and government. They will be needed, and in time ..... appreciated.
I purchased a comfortable pair of little black walking shoes and spent the first year next to the canal, pondering, remembering, breathing, and moving in a steady rhythm, until I found myself slowly establishing balance and evolving. I especially liked the ducks who make the sweetest funniest sounds I know of. They enjoy themselves, and I see them swimming together and apart. Some ducks mate for life, I think, some travel solo, at least some of the time. They were good company.
My girlfriend just reminded me about the experience two years ago, I was that memorably bad. But the damned thing was retrograde. Cut me some slack! I'll try to do a little better.
Mars is energy, vitality, aggression, and selfness. In this vast collective liquid is not usually where he wants to cut a swath with his sword of triumph and conquest, disregarding the needs of everyone, let alone anyone. Mars' sharp, pointed, thrusting fiery energy dissolves in the Neptunian sea, losing direction and force. Neptune, however, can use this dynamo to further his aims, whatever they might be. And Mars can even perform some inspired magical acts, with grace added to his usual aplomb.
Wherever Mars is currently speeding through the chart there is increased activity in that sector, excitement mixed with despair, possible quarrels, unexpected aggression and then retreat, and probably a lot of confusion. Mars in Pisces forms a convoluted path, providing an opportunity to experience things from different angles, perhaps with sparks from the netherworlds. The following might give you some ideas .... what could happen as this mighty fiery one tries to navigate the Pisces waters in your charts.
1st house. Here the whole persona is affected, with energy levels going on wild swings, and vacillations between moving out and retreating. Mars wants forward, Neptune couldn't care less what direction you think you want to go. He would prefer you escape into your dreamworld if at all possible, but Mars would caution against being misguided at this time, and following shadows and unseen entities, unless you thoroughly trust them, of course. Despair at any lack of vitality should be ignored. It will pass. On the other hand, an arabesque in the evening sunset would be good for the body.
2nd house. If you happen to have a fistful of dollars, watch out. They can easily dissipate with the frittering Neptune up to his old tricks. This gives an entirely new twist to the idea of 'money laundering'. But a beggar on the street could be the lucky recipient of one of these bills, with Pisces tugging at the compassionate steak that could be in there. Of course, there is also the possibility of the dream deal, and certainly beautiful things to purchase that will add grace to the life. Even a boost in self worth is within grasp, if degradation is kept to a minimum. Your worth could be infinite for a moment. Getting them to see it is another matter.
3rd house. Misunderstandings, breakdowns in communication, and out and out lies are potentials with Mars through this fun house. Being the home of siblings, there is always the chance of discord occurring there, but the reverse could happen, and new lines of exchange can open up.Sometimes connections are unable to be completed, or fade in and out, as you seem to be trying to communicate with a ghost. Or you have to explain things a thousand times. And the car, or the minivan, or whatever it is that carts you to your destinations ..... these creatures occasionally go on the fritz. It's also happened that the dream car appears. However it works out, getting from here to there can have complications. On the other hand, poetry and inspired ideas are anxious to bounce out from a Pisces third house.
4th house. Make sure you have a backup supply of Kleenex, preferably purchased on sale. Sadness is common with Mars in Pisces through the 4th. Accumulated hurts and sorrows can be aroused, along with the usual 4th house fears, now really revved up. Retreat is often desired, but this can lead to beautiful moments in withdrawal away from the commotion and frenzy of the outside world. With this desire, sometimes comes an urge to make the home more spiritual and add gorgeous touches to the environment to soothe and remind you that not all grace is lost in this brutal world. There are pockets of gentleness somewhere.
5th house. A ticket to melodrama is often included with Mars in Pisces through the 5th. Then again, the most inspired performance ever seen is a possibility, either by you or the favored actors. Dissipation in partying can happen if you are that type, and if you gamble, you could hit the jackpot or lose it all. The children can present huge problems or they could entertain at the family reunion, keeping them jumping and clapping. You could get the lead in the play you've been dreaming about for ages. A good thing, too, when the love affair dissolves and the broken heart needs a new infatuation. Or you and the new love will have an unforgettable night of theater. In any case, the show must definitely go on.
6th house. So the routine goes to pot, or doesn't seem so satisfying. So what? And things can easily start going haywire on the job, if someone doesn't pick up on the fact that you just figured out the best way to get the task done. Or they could criticize you for being sloppy, not seeing their own inability to keep it all in tight order. If you lose a job, you could just as easily find a temporary ideal one. If things fall apart, they could just as easily magically realign. Can't tell. One of the best things to do in all of it, is to remember the purifying spiritual moments always necessary for Neptune-6th house types. Routine as religion, work as worship.
7th house. Don't marry him. Give it a few weeks. But a spiritual retreat might work out well. At any rate, try to keep your wits about you, not completely unattainable... really...with a Pisces 7th house. If the intact partner is troublesome now, it will probably correct itself soon. Briefly. And if she wants to bring out her old guitar and sing love songs to you at midnight under the moonlight, by all means encourage her. If you can't win any arguments now, rest assured, that probably no one will. And if you want to find love on an ocean cruise, you just might.
8th house. Do not go crazy. Drown in paranoia. Get weak from hypercrisis. Feel like murdering the ex. It's not as bad as you think. Even if you lose a fortune. You could just as easily inherit one. The minideaths of everyday living, along with the big ones, can be understood in the whole picture of existence. The eternal transitions. Even though Mars can whip up psychological discomfort in this sector, he can also bring truth in illumination with Neptune. The pain can be managed, as usual. So can the joy.
9th house. I highly recommend not going to India to see the guru just now. In fact, the pundits at home should be taken with a grain of salt from the Neptunian sea. In and around the professed guidelines to enlightenment, though, are some real glimpses into other dimensions. The words might just penetrate now with a longed-for meaning that previously eluded you. On the other hand, one of those sea cruises with a saint on board might work. And if that fails, then you can always talk to the dolphins. They'll tell you the truth.
10th house. If the top of the ladder just disappeared, do not worry. It will come back. You don't have to transcend the earth plane entirely to achieve your goals. You might feel like chasing the illusive rung especially fast now, but I would imagine, the destination will keep moving one step ahead. In the meantime, the feats you've already performed are worth admiring. Maybe someone above you will recognize your distinction, if they're not occupied with dissipation and failure themselves. Confusing power struggles are nothing to be alarmed at. The authorities are just as lost as you are. Reaching for heaven is a stretch, so it will take time.
11th house. Do not despair about the human condition entirely. It will seem better in a moment. I know you wish you could do more, but just feeling the struggle is really enough. Of course, any amount of volunteer work, or help extended toward the unlucky and downtrodden is more than most do. At the same time, it's easy to go overboard with your own visions and then dip into disillusionment, but it all evens out. Some of it can actually come into being, sometimes when you least expect it to. Keep wishing, and in the meantime, inspired gatherings with your enlightened companions can do wonders as we all search for progressive, good-hearted connections with our fellows. Somebody's got to do it.
12th house. Don't ask. Just grab your life preserver.
Identity. These SNs are immersed in others' personalities to the extent that they they lose touch with who they are as individuals. They take their cues from others' opinions and often second guess their choices, even when they know initially they were right. They see everything from other people's points of view to the exclusion, at times, of their best judgement. They often associate their successes or failures with those of others, delaying the development of confidence in themselves. Old patterns lead them to seek out people with whom they can identify, but they usually find the differences becoming increasingly overbearing, sometimes becoming an internal battle for survival.
Indecisiveness. Tied together with approval is the exasperating inability to make clear, fast, and firm decisions, feeling an uneasiness about the repercussions. They have difficulty understanding that their lives are entirely their own, to do with what they want. Others can fit into their decisions; they know this when at their best, but usually the reverse is the case, and they bend, twist, and contort to fit into the alien program, trying to rationalize and convince themselves that it will work out, and they will get their way too. Satisfaction eludes, they wait and see what will happen, staying busy weighing far too many options.
Excessive fairplay. The SN Libras are afraid of doing the wrong thing and not serving justice even when it hurts them to remain bonded to equality and fairness. Tat for tat, good deeds begetting endless good deeds, no act of sweetness unreciprocated, and never an unkind ignoring of another's demands, can leave these people exhausted, wondering why relationships end up unfulfilling despite this merry-go-round of cooperation. The exciting liberation of doing the not-so-perfectly-right thing remains out of their grasp as they become increasingly diminished in this outworn goodness of behavior. They've been kind enough. Too kind.
Fear of rejecting others. This terrifies SN Libras so much that they would 1,000,000 times rather be the rejected party. They stay in unrewarding situations waiting for the ax to be dropped by anyone but themselves. When by some miracle they cut someone loose, there are often doubts, regrets, and hopes that they can still get together again and work it out. The complete separation they know they need sometimes comes too late for a clean and satisfactory feeling of freedom. Recognizing the impossibility of satisfaction, and having the strength to act decisively are much needed characteristics in order for these natives to move ahead and discover genuine progress. The act of rejecting, itself, is an establishment of firm identity and confidence.
Getting one's way, making demands, and winning. Speaking up and demanding decisions be made in their favor can be very difficult, especially when someone else seems to lose in the process. To be accused of being selfish is ghastly, but this is exactly what works best. Me first. It's not selfish in the way others think, it's smart and necessary. The competetive urge is as powerful as it gets, yet when push comes to shove, they back away from coming out on top. Always putting other people's needs before their own has become archaic. Doing what they want is paramount.
Oversensitivity to the disharmonious needs of everyone. It'll drive you crazy.
The Libra SNs are bringing their expertise in compromise, cooperation, and support of others, home to themselves, stepping out of the confines of one-on-ones, to develop a full relationship with the self. The North Node in Aries. A great one.
What amazes me is that it only took a little over one hundred years to get to the thick and sticky wicket we're presently in. This makes me think we could get out of it just as fast, using the same imaginative genius. That would be a good dill for everyone. Alternative barrels.
If you see me comin' better step asideThis particular bird was perched on the side of a fruit crate carrying grapes from California early last century. Those crates were wild.
A lotta men didn't, and a lotta men died.
Planets revolve and cycles repeat in predictable patterns that astrologers have observed for thousands of years. Yet despite hopes for major shifts in collective consciousness, they never arrive. Change is more subtle than this. The process is evolutionary and occurs at a pace slower than people can commonly perceive. It can be seen in retrospect, however.
Hopes have been especially elevated with Pluto in the Galactic Center and the great Mayan prediction of major sudden transformation in 2012. Unlikely. Natural selection determines our gradual transmogrification, as traits best suited to the environment develop little by little. Everything mutates and changes according to habitat, beyond our control, fortunately.
Exactly like this pine tree pictured above. It chose the characteristics that would encourage it to survive the conditions, incorporated them, and reproduced them over a long period of time. The surroundings influenced its growth.
I just came across a fascinating article about apes, hominids, religion, and natural selection. It theorizes that humans evolved the way they did partly due to a spritual perception that favored survival. It's common to everyone on the planet.
As the Moon in Sagittarius now crosses Jupiter and stationing Pluto, I'm once again reminded of these great cycles and what to expect. Pluto is given the job of evolutionary change in mass consciousness, according to astrology. I would personally love to see the end of religious hypocrisy, murder in the name of god, the political vulgarity, and the emergence of good leadership along with an anthropological understanding and acceptance of human differences and cultural diversity, but I'm realistic. It will take many revolutions and cycles until the current patterns no longer fit the needs of the time.
These plain metal buckets, made in the early 20th century, originally had none of the appeal of color, surface, and wear that they have acquired over years of use and which lends them such character and charm.Sounds like human life, doesn't it? And it brings Saturn to mind, once again. All the tarnish, lines, blemishes, and breakdowns of the passage of time add another kind of grace and beauty to my eye. I think there is a fair exchange. It's hard to imagine, but I've always thought that a certain acceptance of mortality comes in the late Saturn years.
The human face, in particular, fascinates me as time etches the personality on the surface, and replaces the false images the young labor to project. The character creates a visable map, the emotions are no longer hidden, and the real self emerges, as Saturn works his wonders on the human form, both good and bad. The knee might be creaky, but the skin of some old ladies is glowing and magnificent with pink and aquamarine jewels dangling from their ears, rhinestones encircling the muti-faceted necks.
I've grown to trust Saturn, by natal placement, by transit, by horrifying square to Mars, and by instinct as I approach old age. Time removes the sting of each pain, adds breadth of experience, and brings knowledge of life and death.