Pawns in the Game
I don't worry much. They're all pawns in the game anyway. It doesn't matter who is selected. They are the unlucky ones, driven by desires they don't control or understand, on their way to disappointing ends. One loses, one wins, but no one controls the odds.
The more the years pass, the more I see my own part in a larger situation as well. I'm slowly teaching myself to step away somewhat and make room for things to progress. Observe some of it, actually. It goes on with or without me, I've noticed.
In the end I think this is my greatest comfort. To know that almost any choice I make will be equal to any other.
I am free.
Illustration by Chris van Allsburg.
posted by jm at 1:47 AM
12 Comments:
jm, you'd be proud of me today. I was very Cap toward a client who historically flings herself into hysterics when things go wrong. She brought down the law on herself by writing a bad check and then expected me to come to the rescue to take her to the bank and resolve the problem today. She called me a goddamn bastard and told me never to call her again.
And the amazing thing is, I don't feel bad about it the way I would have a year ago. This is something she knowingly did and so she must suffer the consequences.
Sure is too bad that people seem unable to comment, esp during Moon in Aquarius.
That's funny joe. Moon in Aquarius. I'd be interested in your impressions of this Moon.
I am extremely impressed. I know full well how hard it is to resist the fear that gets aroused by these incidents. And the biggest problem, the guilt. This is inspiring as I am dealing with my SN and others too right now.
The thing is, it seems to me the guilt would be greater from neglecting the real responsibilities. These events are danging carrot tests. You did great with the new Cap Moon. Your self discipline is your ace in general.
This is something she knowingly did and so she must suffer the consequences.
Would that everybody (relatively) would do the right thing.
She called me a goddamn bastard and told me never to call her again.
Your gain.
hehe, well, my gain only until she calms down enough to be civil. I would like to discharge her from our agency if at all possible but it may not be up to me.
I would like to discharge her from our agency if at all possible but it may not be up to me.
Now THAT is interesting. And will be forthcoming. That is pure Capricorn and will be in your future in the upcoming Cap years. The right person has to do this hard job, and you're it.
What a difference from handholding to the bank! And sopping up tears on some ragged kleenex!
And what a boost for her.
It's exactly my time of year, with the inner planets in Capricorn and Aquarius. :-) A good time for me to be introspective and focus on inner work.
It's funny that she thinks she needs extraordinary help resolving the bad check problem. Does she believe she's mature enough to have a checkbook in the first place, one wonders.
It's exactly my time of year, with the inner planets in Capricorn and Aquarius.
A Match made in Heaven.
You nailed it, Kad. I should ask her that question.
Heh. Sounds like hysterics is her way of forcing her way through situations. Best not to give any power to that kind of thing, of course.
Joe's gonna love that one, kad. Sounds quite common actually. Is WWIII off this week?
Yeh, good Saturn-Neptune reflection as well. I wish I could write as poetically as you! I was reading War and Peace recently, and Tolstoy is at pains to make the same point. History is not the story of decisions made by leaders! It's also what a lot of conspiracy theorists are doing - giving these alleged small groups of people a lot more power to control events than they can possibly have.
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