Thursday, March 29, 2007

North Node in Pisces or the Twelfth House

It takes a while for Pisces to materialize, as you can see, and this is what the North Node represents. The world of imagination, the nonmaterial, the spiritual, if you like. Fantasy replaces practicality, as the body becomes a vehicle for passage into alternative dimensions. One thing is no longer connected to another in predictable pattern, as life unfolds in a spontaneous continuum, revealing sensations and mysteries hitherto inconceivable. The world is unlimited, and freedom ..... a person's right.
Clarity and peace of mind. While the SN in Virgo stuggled to clarify precisely all sense impressions, and string them together into an intellectual and understandable design, NN Pisceans are now content to let them find their own direction and form, bringing an end to the nervous anxiety and fear that all is not right. It is what it is, and part of an orchestration that these NNs can feel and hear as rhythm and music many others miss in their busy routines and mundane preoccupations.
When my NN Pisces girlfriend played my old upright piano, the squeaks in the ancient keys became sea gulls. "Don't you hear the sea gulls crying?" she asked. We were in the desert.
The Pisces NNs are ready to open up mental dimensions, allowing space to enter, time to become insignificant, and imagination to become part of everyday living.

Nonjudgement. Coming from a history of discrimination, comparison, contrast, and exactness, NN Pisceans are ready to embrace acceptance, finding less need for judging the right and wrong of everything in pursuit of perfection that doesn't exist. The fatal flaw is just another thread in the fabric, easily absorbed and overlooked. Purity is inherent in experience, and excess criticism becomes unnecessary, as people are behaving according to nature, and things are blending in a perfect synthesis, easily perceived from a detached perspective.

Trust, surrender, and going with the flow. While the SN thinks if it can tweak and fiddle, it can get things to go in the right direction, Pisces NNs are ready to swim with the current and let themselves be carried with ease to new experiences, relinquishing resistance. Fear of turbulence becomes a joy ride in the upswings, dips, eddies, and tidal changes. The perception of a vast universal control frees them to pursue many interests that otherwise would be lost in the daily effort expended to align every passing detail. Formlessness, boundlessness, and willingness become newfound pleasures.
An unstructured life. While rituals and duties must always be performed to some extent, the less the better with these nodeholders. Free time is their gift to take, along with the path out of so-called reality that this kind of life provides. Spontaneity is the aim. Many say later, when the real work is done, they'll be able to pursue the visions they've always dreamed of, whim and fancy being their guidelines. But with each turn of the road, more pressing jobs appear, until they shake themselves free, and live the kind of existence only artists are supposed to enjoy. Many times, in fact, they have these kinds of talents and are meant to find fulfillment in an alternative lifestyle, no matter what the fearful voice says, or others demand.

Beauty. One of the most glorious characteristics of the NN in Pisces is the love of creativity and artistic human expression. Poetry and dance are often high on the list of favorites. The sublime grace of the body in harmonic movement and the complete spectrum of emotion felt in music, painting, poetry, drama, and all the other arts, are natural to them, whether they participate or observe. It's probably a good idea to try some of these, as hidden talents are often waiting to be developed, along with the feeling that they are finally doing what they really wanted to do all along.
Departure from reality. While this is frowned upon in many quarters, Pisces NNs are being invited into this realm, unconditionally, and with the promise of big reward. Guilt can hold them back, but once this is released, these natives can see the greater guilt of not living this destiny. Few are allowed to do this so freely, but Pisces have earned this through years of servitude and suffering. The world of illusion now is the contribution they can bring to others. Transcendence is their right.
Earth to water. The rigid forms and boundaries of earth are dissolving in the Pisces NN to create a permeable membrane that allows an easy in-and-out passage of experience. The merging of water is a great relief as defense is no longer needed, and fluid relaxation into sensation can develop.

Fantasies, myths, fairytales, and illusions. There are no more qualified people than the NN Pisceans to explore the world of dragons, fairies, princes, demons, and all assorted mythological creatures. The human need for storytelling and dream fulfillment is in their hands. While one person would call the piano repairman to remove the squeaks, the Piscean would allow the sea gulls to fly, giving full expression to alternative perceptions, no matter how mad or far out they appear. They know we can't live without the recognition of these dimensions. This makes them masters of psychological healing. 
Psychic impressions. These natives are highly attuned to telepathic communication and messages from other worlds. Like a tuning fork of an unknown tone, they receive sensory input not perceived by the ordinary person, and can convey information needed by people, sometimes as directives at crucial times in their lives. The Pisces NNs are passing through the doors of perception.
Compassion, suffering, healing, and redemption. The Pisces NNs are spiritual allies. It's beyond personal sympathy, as their skills take in the whole spectrum of experience. They understand it all. These people have the knowledge of ancient struggles, and the mastery of purification and redemption through humble service and self-sacrifice. They know the guilts that plague humanity and the desire to rectify the wrongs that are committed. They known the dual nature of people, and recognize the potential goodness despite civilization's history of crime. Now they are ready to respond to all energy fields comfortably, without rushing to fix every small hurt, but letting time proceed, leading people to the right conclusions themselves. This time they no longer have to serve in an abject way, but serve simply by being.

Enlightenment. This is the node that knows all. And lives in the moment.

The Pisces NNs are taking their accumulated knowledge of human imperfection and rectification from the personal sphere, to a healing of the ills of the world at large, as they help others get closer to spiritual union. A fine task, indeed.

Illustrations from top:Michael Forman. Manya Stojic. Busby Berkeley from Golddiggers. K.Y.Craft.


Blogger jm said...

And wouldn't you know it. It's snowing here.

29/3/07 7:07 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Thank you JM for this, a beautiful summary, you are so wise, how you see us all (SN, NN) amazes me.

The wind has stopped and the sun is shining, a quiet and glorious morning, it's on its way east to you...perhaps your morning tomorrow or the day after.

29/3/07 8:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you.
I have been waiting for this moment for weeks and what a perfect morning to read your beautiful words and feels the tears well up.
I have been reading just since the beginning of your nodes series (following a link from Lynn's Astrodynamics) and I can't tell you what an impact your insight and poetry of understanding has had on me.
I have only recently been learning about the nodes and their place in our journey and I'm glad it led me to you!
I am a NN Pisces (11th house) and my Virgo has been so heavy lately (I just did a very earthy thing--bought a house and moved all of my 'stuff' and I'm still reeling from it) that I needed your firefly light to guide my eyes and heart back to the beautiful dreamer of magic within me. Thank you again!
With Sun and 3 other planets in Virgo in 5th and 6th houses plus SN, I feel disembodied sometimes because I think that is how Pisces helps me cope with all that Virgo (that, and smoking!--Taurus Asc.-- I laughed to myself with an aha when I read that thread in an earlier comment stream). But lately I feel both very much in my body (which is good because I am also acutely aware of the 'skin' I am shedding) and somewhere very far away. The combo makes me feel a bit delirious, vertiginous.

Anyway, my Mercury in 5th house in Virgo will bring this ramble to an end.
I wanted to humbly and euphorically thank you!
I look forward to more of your beauty and knowledge and am glad you feel moved and inspired to share it...


29/3/07 9:21 AM  
Blogger Donnie McDaniel said...

Strange, reading Meristem's comment, I had one thing in mind. I could only see the colors pink and gray. That's odd. Unless the thought of something those colors are in the head of the one I think about. Still not what I usually see with people.

29/3/07 9:44 AM  
Blogger Donnie McDaniel said...


29/3/07 9:45 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Tseka, your story about your brothers was one of the best I've absorbed. Thank you. It adds a tremendous amount to my respect for the nodes. The answers therein. The simplicity.
We're always looking for ourselves, and in the nodes...there we are.

And I do hope your glorious morning comes our way.

29/3/07 2:29 PM  
Blogger jm said...


Where do I begin? The emotional flow of your comment has gone to my center, after so many many years of being ignored, yet holding this knowledge in with a desire to disseminate. Like everyone, I need to know my significance in this life, and you just did it for me.
My favorite aunt, a Virgo, was the only one in the family who knew I had a gift of insight. I've always thought that Virgos were by far the most aware of all the signs. The most intelligent. the quickest to process it all. I believe more than ever now.

But lately I feel both very much in my body (which is good because I am also acutely aware of the 'skin' I am shedding) and somewhere very far away. The combo makes me feel a bit delirious, vertiginous.

With all that Virgo, the body will always dictate to some extent, but the NN can be reached anyway. The feeling of your comment is entirely your NN in Pisces.
With so many planets, it makes the Pisces sensations all that more powerful.

Everyone is attached to the SN and it will operate anyway, no matter what. The main thing I think we can do is refrain from excess efforts there, and concentrate on the North, since no matter what else is going on, the North Node will deliver reward. Always. Without question and condition.

While we agonize with all the other parts and struggle through our complicated lives, it's always there when we have a minute!

I feel disembodied sometimes because I think that is how Pisces helps me cope with all that Virgo

Very wise. they work together, ultimately.

I think Virgo is the most underestimated sign. When it all comes down, the Virgo seems to be the one to save us. Virgo leads to the end and enlightenment in Pisces, so I think this sign is pivotal and way more important than people think.

I could write a book on every little detail of astrology, I love it so. Mars in my 6th house fuels that love of detail and always seeing more and more layers and dimensions in everything.

Thank you for your incredible comment, meristem. And I don't think smoking should be a problem for you at all.

29/3/07 4:33 PM  
Blogger jm said...

Donnie, I love the color talk. I think they are there around everything to illuminate. Very Piscean.

29/3/07 4:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My Aries has this NN in the 12th . . . and SN in Virgo in the 6th. I catch glimpses of the NN but am very familiar with that SN in Virgo. Vacation?! What's a Vacation? sigh . . . :-) Of course, we are moving into Spring & pretty soon it will time to start cutting grass once a week! And if we really lucky the asparagus will start coming up!!! YUM!!!

No one even come close to you, jm, when it comes to the Nodes. Pat P was so right when she called you the Queen of Nodes!! I save them all . . . treasures every one. :-)

29/3/07 4:37 PM  
Blogger jm said...

Thanks neith! It's good to be queen of something with Saturn in Leo in the 5th!

29/3/07 4:39 PM  
Blogger jm said...

Oh neith. Btw. In the middle of the last horrendous week, you brought my attention to a Venus transit of my NN in Taurus, and I was watching it. Well, lo and behold, a major event occurred exactly on the pass concerning the node.
So thank you. It's always a pleasure to be told about the good things.

29/3/07 5:05 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

My Aries has this NN in the 12th . . . and SN in Virgo in the 6th. I catch glimpses of the NN but am very familiar with that SN in Virgo. Vacation?! What's a Vacation? sigh . . . :-)

whooboy in the 6th?
Well, do you think if we begin to work on him now he'll think a trip to the westside is fun and fabulous in July? I will be showing at the Bellevue Art Museum....we have to think of something.

Congrats Chrispito on getting into art school. I once lived in Vancouver and loved it.

I too wish i had not missed last night's conversation. Very interesting.

29/3/07 5:42 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Thinking about the NN pisces and how will it matches up to my life i guess the Node being in the first house conjuct my Aq asc matters.

One thing i would add about learning to live a (NN in Pisces) life where the "door" has been left open after your arrival on this planet would be 1. The shock that you are so different. 2. Getting over it.

29/3/07 5:46 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Another tidbit about my brother that may say something about "astrology of kindred" is that we were born on each other's descendant / ascendant with the exact degree of Virgo moon in the first / 7th. The Nodes suggest potential markers of soul families. We recognize one another so it only makes sense that patterns of astrology would reflect that. Fun to contemplate in any case.

29/3/07 5:53 PM  
Blogger jm said...

I will be showing at the Bellevue Art Museum...


1. The shock that you are so different. 2. Getting over it.
Aquarius rising too.

I would say, though, about "getting over it?" Maybe it's the others that need to "get over it".

we were born on each other's descendant / ascendant with the exact degree of Virgo moon in the first / 7th.

Asc/Dsc...major players in family karma. The Moon is soul memory, and so the nodes of the Moon along with the Moon tell a lot about spiritual lineage.

I think all families are soul families. Sometimes we pick ones we really don't belong to, in familiar terms, when we have big Aquarius/Pisces lessons about freedom and detachment. Often happens with 12th house planets. Wrong family. So it seems.

29/3/07 6:07 PM  
Blogger jm said...

We talked earlier about Virgo/Pisces family karma and sickness, sometimes mental disabilities, drug problems, etc., as a vehicle to learn about health, sacrifice, caring, and the spiritual dimensions. The lessons are different for everyone according to personal karma. Some are meant to lean into service, others to leave it be. All in an alchemical mix that becomes clear as life progresses.

But I almost always see this in Virgo/Pisces families and marriages.

29/3/07 6:15 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you for your kind words about Virgo. I have often felt, as you expressed, that we are misunderstood, underestimated, always relegated to being the hyperanalytical nitpickers as though we have no magic, no earth knowing, no grace. Erg!
And I am both in awe of and very grateful for my NN Pisces. I always secretly treasured and sometimes now even brag about a comment on my second grade report card that said, "M is a good student, but she daydreams too much." Hee!
I take pride in my Virgoness even while I strive to navigate my sense of otherness, (hyper)sensitivity, compulsion to analyse (second nature) but these things have helped me grow and heal in immeasurable ways, too. INFP I think.
This magical vehicle of astrology has beckoned me from an early age but I come to it slowly, intuitively, while my Mercury brain and moon in Aries want to gobble it up, swallow it whole..... *sigh*
I love your relationship with it, you seem to have come here with it in your blood rather than having learned it and your way with it speaks to me. You love it, tenderly, fiercely. Yay!
I'd like to mention also that I am so smitten with your sense of whimsy (I think we speak the same language there) and look very forward to the images you collect and display - they are always so perfect and add an extra dimension of depth to what you share...

I'm glad I could reflect your light back to you!

with much warmth,

29/3/07 6:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh yeah, and the freedom part? Right on! don't get me started....

29/3/07 6:42 PM  
Blogger jm said...

M is a good student, but she daydreams too much."


So many of these criticisms all through our lives are really compliments. It's so funny. How confusung. So Virgo/Pisces.

Meristem. I need this so much. You are really intuitive. Very little in the way of praise has ever come my way, but my Saturn in Leo made sure it was late getting here. It had to be genuine. I certainly am finding out what I've been missing. What degree is your Moon in Aries?

"Whimsy" is one of my all time favorite words. When I'm referred to that way, I feel completely right about myself. Thank you.

you seem to have come here with it in your blood rather than having learned it

Very well put and true. I know it from somewhere else. I knew everyone's signs since I was a child. It's second nature to me, and probably my closest friend. Always there, guiding me and clarifying all my experience. There are more keys than most people realize in the science, once they can free themselves from preconception and the oh-so-hard need to prove prediction skill. That's a great impediment.

After the most tragic and difficult stretch of my life, it was a Virgo who caught me in my fall and saved me. So many things happened, it would take a long time to tell. In the midst of my suffering, I was entranced with his skill at helping me process my experience. Unique to Virgo. Part talk, part action, part I don't know what.
And my aunt, the Virgo, has always affected me more profoundly than any of my other numerous relatives.

There are times when the nitpicking is painful to others, but that has more to do with their own self doubt.

I do so love that whimsy statement!

And I'm delighted, meristem, that you appeared. What a name!

29/3/07 6:51 PM  
Blogger jm said...

The Moon in aries is also a freedom lover. Or should I say fighter????

29/3/07 6:53 PM  
Blogger jm said...

Btw, despite the critical analysis, which I happen to enjoy, is a definite graceful characteristic. A certain sprightly, unassuming way of moving about some of them have.

Many Virgos I know, are slender, and light in presence. Quick, agile, and almost elf like in some cases.
Others can be large and heavy boned earthy types, but there are all the other factors.
Virgo is mutable...high energy, nervous... all those things I like. I love Gemini too, another underestimated sign, though not as maligned as the put-upon Virgo!

29/3/07 6:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you, Tseka! (It's not Emily Carr I got into, BTW, but a lovely college's fine arts program). Yes, vancouver and it's lovely cherry trees blossoming like pink snow!

I find it interesting, the concept of NN/SN and family history. My mother is an Aries Sun/ Aquarius Moon, and my dad is a Libra (nearing Scorpio) with a Taurus moon. My NN is in Libra, and I find my Dad's family very, very sound and stable, while my mom's was anything but. Hmmm.

29/3/07 7:49 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Meristem, what a delight.
So pleased you have found this unique and wonder filled place jm has created.


I'm making Swedish pancakes on my woodstove tonight...with strawberries, i am rich.

29/3/07 7:49 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Chrispito, you can learn art anywhere.
Be sure and grab every bit of foundation you can. Neith and i both are keen on learning the technique which goes missing in a lot of colleges these days. Technique the tools then you can do anything go anywhere your imagination takes you. Wish you luck and fun doing.

29/3/07 7:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Technique, and tools, true true! The best thing about where I am going is that the supply costs are very low and we have unlimited supplies of paper, paints, clay, studio time, storage. Thanks for your words of wisdom Tseka, and oh! your work is weepingly-lovely. :)

29/3/07 8:46 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Thanks Chrispito i am just now posting paintings to tseka from my current body of work. The website got ripped down a while back and has been in a holding pattern waiting me. The next few days i should get two new galleries up.

29/3/07 8:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm glad we're sparking each other's joy and reflecting/validating an inner awareness.
I love getting outside confirmation of things I have known/discovered/realized about myself because of the affirmation that I'm not making it up! Especially when it seems that ideas come from some mysterious place (even though that is more than perfectly fine). Ex: I have felt for some time that I had an aristocratic life at some point because of a part of me that longs for such a lifestyle (leisure, luxury, travel, education and the freedom to pursue my dreams, fantasies, etc... you know, focus my "brilliance" on other than making a living, ha!). When I read your description of SN 5th house/Leo, I paid attention because my SN is actually in the 5th house though in Virgo. Lo and behold, there it was! It gives me tingles...
Anyway, I think my moon is like 7 degrees in Aries but I'll have to doublecheck once I unpack more.

I'm so glad that I have been able to offer you something because frankly I feel like I've just been taking!
I'm sad to hear that it has been a long time coming for you to know how your gifts can touch people....

More whimsy!

And Tseka, thank you for the welcome! How did you know I have Germanic ancestry?

Thanks for letting me play!


29/3/07 9:43 PM  
Blogger jm said...

New paintings? Swedish pancakes???

Very interesting about your family Chrispito. It's amazing how it goes.

Welcome meristem with all your 5th house play! Feel completely free to express yourself. Many of us are rather verbose, so don't hold back.
The nodes do seem to reflect past lives, but I've noticed that the past lives can really be earlier incarnations of ourselves in this life.

29/3/07 10:35 PM  
Blogger jm said...

And meristem. Congratulations on your new house. First one? They can be wonderful playlands for Pisces types and 5th house creativity. I finally have the worktables I've always wanted. About 30 feet total. Projects are everywhere.

29/3/07 10:59 PM  
Blogger jm said...


"Wind Across Granite"
Beautiful. Changes. More abstract? Simplicity.
Abstract is so very hard to do well, and I love it.

And light captured in this one. Isn't it also very very hard to get light to stand out with watercolor? And the blend of many, yet so few.

This is wonderful. To see the unfolding. Freedom and new dimensions.
I think the artist's work is her life mapping itself. So good to be able to see.

Time is Held Differently in the Desert
what endures
what is blown away
becomes the Shape of time

So true.

29/3/07 11:37 PM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Water Tracings is the name of that piece. Abstract by nature's design. Wind erodes, water follows the language drawn by the wind, deepens the grooves.

I love more abstract work, just enough for the mind to slide into natrually, without saying too much- like your sons. My favorite artist; Isamu Naguchi, also love much of Helen Frankentaller's work.

30/3/07 12:13 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

oops like your songs.

30/3/07 12:14 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

The work actually comes from a very old series i am working on again. Two actually, both about time and memory. Long lines. This one voices in the rock, the other voices in the Ice.

The Rune I iss, ice has a poem to it if i can remember is the bark of the river, the roof of the wave and man's undoing. It is the bridge between knowing.
In the old sagas it represents memory. The "frost giants" Ancient wisdom - the planets of our beginning.

30/3/07 12:23 AM  
Blogger jm said...

I thought it looked like water.

OMG. I don't know these artists. I will see.

When I'm feeling my best, free from anxiety, I see the abstract patterns in everything. This is when I know I'm well. I try to keep my life simple for this reason. So I don't have to think about the fussy details, and I'm free to really look around and perceive.

Wind erodes, water follows the language drawn by the wind, deepens the grooves.

Yes. hadn't thought of this. Beautiful. I've always loved records and the grooves the needles follow to make sound. I imagine they deepen with each playing.

I think abstract suits you, although to you, I don't think it's abstract. Interesting. Only to the viewer. Maybe there is no such thing. We find the pattern, the meaning.

30/3/07 12:24 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Ha! Just struck me how like NN in Pisces this is.

I am the spirit of the unborn sea
Ancient memory
Locked in blue icewalls
for the Sun's touch to release me homeward.

Water is the carrier of memory.

30/3/07 12:25 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Correct to me they are not abstract. Like you i find the simple pattern. Really when i started cutting the paintings apart it was symbolic of how i see. The world is fractured and the mind pieces it into a whole. I still see between the spaces - sometimes.

30/3/07 12:29 AM  
Blogger jm said...

The work actually comes from a very old series i am working on again.

Oh, this is so good. I love doing that. The more I go on, the more I see the value in some of my earlier work.

ice is the bark of the river

I love this.
I have a sympatico with cold and ice. Sometimes I think of moving further North before I die to get the full crystalline sharp cold, and the incredible clear nights. I love the smell of the cold.

The whole idea of crystallized water (emotion) is interesting. Water is memory, I think, so ice must be a certain kind of memory. I know it evokes very singular sensations in me.
The wind through the pines, the snow, and the moving water frozen. Almost like a standstill. A photo. A stopping point. Reflection. And also detachment. So many things.

30/3/07 12:31 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Water is the carrier of memory.

We were cross-posting.

Something's up my talented friend. NNs and Saturn-Neptunes. Ice and ancient beings. New people. Talent erupting. I want to go with it.

30/3/07 12:34 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

I've always loved records and the grooves the needles follow to make sound. I imagine they deepen with each playing.

This is exactly it jm.
Sometimes the rocks actually "sing" as the wind slides over them. There are grand dikes of exposed quartz slightly raised above the adjacent surface- the granite has eroded more quickly, when you lay your head on the rocks they whisper - i swear.

30/3/07 12:34 AM  
Blogger jm said...

The world is fractured and the mind pieces it into a whole. I still see between the spaces - sometimes.

Yes. The mind pieces it and keeps moving the pieces. It's never right.

I think the spaces hold everything. Like the brain synapse. I've been working forever on this with the piano. If I play every note from the bottom to the top, the mind wanders. if I play one note, then leap across a space, the mind can't predict where the next note will be. It stays interested.

So we are the fracturers. It's how we fracture and reconstruct that tells the story. Space creates drama. Anticipation.

30/3/07 12:39 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

I'm with you on the cold, songs of the North form the largest part of my work - and not too salable, unfortunately people like warm and cozy.

Here is an image i am working with at the moment: Full moon frost lays a veil upon the forest floor, climbs up into the Alders, and the Nooksack thunders down from Shuksan carrying the moon on her back.

30/3/07 12:40 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

OOOH we are fracturers umm hmm. I can't wait to hear your songs, almost i can in the words.

I am pathetically non-musical and still i can almost hear your songs.

30/3/07 12:42 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Sometimes the rocks actually "sing"

I know they do. The whole thing is a symphony.

Wind is the carrier. But I think the vibrations in all substance make music.
Whenever you put your ear against a solid object you can hear the amplified sounds.

30/3/07 12:44 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Every atom is a system with whirring and all kinds of actions. There are smaller universes too. All of this can be heard.

I think the sensations of life frighten most people so we've developed an elaborate mechanism to quiet the universe down.

30/3/07 12:46 AM  
Blogger jm said...

OMG! My songs! You will love them. I don't know what I'm going to do. Something.
I'm overwhelmed these days. I keep repeating that to myself..."What am I going to do?"

The songs are out already with a life of their own. They have wings. It's up to me and them to figure it out. Sometimes they mock me and taunt me. They dare me. And sometimes they just quietly wait. They're awful. The whole bunch!

What am I going to do?

30/3/07 12:49 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

I think the sensations of life frighten most people so we've developed an elaborate mechanism to quiet the universe down.

Ironic isn't it, that when we become quiet we hear more. Our elaborate mechanism to quite the universe down is noise....humans are very noisy.

30/3/07 12:50 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Dunno, what does Vishinu say?
I trust him.

30/3/07 12:52 AM  
Blogger jm said...

unfortunately people like warm and cozy.

Oooooh. Can't blame them. But too bad. I know exactly what you're saying. The cool and aloof. The alone. If they're not buying, well so what. They might with Pluto in cool Cap.

Really good thought. Whether to cozy up or not. I'm working with all of this. I can easily evoke feelings they're used to, but I feel like I'd rather not. Less of the obviously sentimental, tear jerking, confessional, and such. I've had my fill, without going as far as Bartok and some of those.
Some of the emotional spiritual material I still want to do, though.

Here is an image i am working with at the moment: Full moon frost lays a veil upon the forest floor, climbs up into the Alders, and the Nooksack thunders down from Shuksan carrying the moon on her back.

Gorgeous. What a joy. New work. Ideas.

30/3/07 12:56 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Our elaborate mechanism to quite the universe down is noise....humans are very noisy.

Exactly. My theory of the sports arena. Screaming to keep the gods overpowered.

30/3/07 12:58 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Vishinu! I must have a conference with him. Coming up. He's so sensible, and very observant. More tolerant than I.

30/3/07 12:59 AM  
Blogger jm said...

That IS a good idea. Asking him what I should do. Hmmmmmm.

30/3/07 1:01 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Actually i do not mind. I simply love to paint. Just love the doing of it. There is work that is long in its unfolding. And there is work that is spontaneous and still from my heart.

I have been making a living at this for more than 30 years and would rather paint some paintings that connect to others while i wait for them to catch up to my images. They always do, but sometimes i wait for 10 years or more. Meanwhile there are many songs tsekas to paint. It is probably good for me to get pushed out of my passions explore others.

30/3/07 1:03 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Well i have a funny story about Vishinu. I loved that post so much that i have invited him into my life. Our leo friend was moaning about "what to do" one night, and i suddenly "saw" that something big was coming. So...Vishinu sent him a message that "someting good ist coming vait and see." Sure enough the next day...a contract for 36 photos to a corporate collection. Vishinu has got the goods jm, i'm a believer.

30/3/07 1:09 AM  
Blogger jm said...

while i wait for them to catch up to my images. They always do, but sometimes i wait for 10 years or more.

That's not long really. They're always always behind. That's why I waited so long without much resistance. If they catch it, it will seem like happenstance. Success will find me, I think. The important thing is to express it as close to the right way as possible.

Probably all artists do this jig with the world. sometimes connecting, then disconnect. The disconnections are the times for new work and other developments. But overall, I don't think we'll ever quite feel connected.

30/3/07 1:10 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Do you think Vishinu is a Taurus? Venus is in Taurus good timing, your NN and all.

30/3/07 1:11 AM  
Blogger jm said...

OMG in heaven, tseka. Vishinu. I'm stunned into silence. Almost an impossible feat.

30/3/07 1:11 AM  
Blogger jm said...


He IS a Taurus!


30/3/07 1:12 AM  
Blogger jm said...

I simply can't believe this tseka. I love vishinu so much and I was certain I was alone in this. He has such infinite charm. So sweet and good.

There is a message here. With the other things going on, I am bringing him into my days. Thank you from every fiber in me for this. The 36 photo contract. OMG.

vait and see

I am touched.

30/3/07 1:15 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

I tell you JM there is an incredible esoteric connection between taurus and Sag and sco.

i happen to love taurus, i just die and go to heaven with all that lovely earth - or it is i simply hate to cook and they usually do?? My Virgo loves to clean so there is a nice comfort level...

30/3/07 1:17 AM  
Blogger jm said...

It would probably be wise to really bring him in again. I hope I haven't lost the lingo. That was so funny. It's between me, you, our genius photoman, vishinu, and the universe.
Gotta start somewhere.

Water Tracings

30/3/07 1:18 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

I figure you left a lot of songs- your own verson of prayer flags, Tibetan chants in the Napalese winds that are just now circling and catching on the Peaks of the Rockies, ready to rain down in new nurturing spring rain.

30/3/07 1:26 AM  
Blogger jm said...

I remember vividly the Taurus, Sag, Scorp connection you introduced to me.

They're the best cooks in the world.
The night M died, I was supposed to attend an important party given by a Taurus. We talked on the phone that night. The only one who knew about the death.
Later when I finished the cleanup of M's apartment, the Taurus was there to help me on the last day. He was the only one I connected with through the whole thing.
When he was 10, He found his father in the backyard dead by suicide.

There is something unnamed about this Taurus deep earth knowledge. One afternoon in his home lingers powerfully in my memory. A long lingering sunset. Nothing happened. That was just it. Everything was happening in the nothingness.

I've got a lot to cover with Taurus. I want to know about the Sag.

30/3/07 1:26 AM  
Blogger jm said...

your own verson of prayer flags, Tibetan chants in the Napalese winds that are just now circling and catching on the Peaks of the Rockies, ready to rain down in new nurturing spring rain.

Oh what a thought. Fertility.
A Hindu prayer flag covers my keyboards.

30/3/07 1:29 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Unbelievable oh no, completely believeable, i resonate so to that story you cannot even begin to know.

Taurus i think must be the morning star, Libra the evening star. I've been thinking about this from a mythical perspective for a while now.

30/3/07 1:31 AM  
Blogger jm said...

I never thought of that with Venus and the stars.
Libra is the sunset in the chart. The descendant.

We are learning. This is joy.

30/3/07 1:35 AM  
Blogger jm said...

So Taurus and the morning star. I must know. I think after the Pluto opposition to my Venus, the time has come.

30/3/07 1:38 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Good thought on the Libra Descendant.

Eos (an name for Venus) is the morning star she sweeps away the others to open the gate for the sun, a daughter of Ullr (Hel) from her name comes - easter the spring.

The evening star is often associated with war. I think Libra is associated with military planning, Generals?

30/3/07 1:43 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Well my singer friend i am off to bed.
You are such good company!

30/3/07 1:45 AM  
Blogger jm said...

libra is the most belligerent sign there is. The war planner and executor.

There are always quarrels around Libras as they act innocent, but behind every act of war, is a Libra. They incite others to do the fighting. They live and breathe conflict.

30/3/07 1:47 AM  
Blogger Tseka said...

Venus leads your Sun so a taruean eos is my thought.

30/3/07 1:47 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Tseka! Good night my love. You're up late and I adore this. Thanks for the wonderful talk. The best company possible. How lucky we got.

30/3/07 1:49 AM  
Blogger jm said...

HA! There you are again. A spirit!

What a great thought! Taurus leading my Sun. I believe this will do it.

30/3/07 1:50 AM  
Blogger Donnie McDaniel said...


I realized something about the image I got on Meristem. The colors have meaning, and at the time, I did not know what. Now that I thought about it, one of the color's meaning came to me. The Pink means love! I have to think on the gray, but I know the pink stands for love.

30/3/07 9:38 AM  
Blogger jm said...

Yes, Donnie. I've always been led to believe that pink is love. You would know..:)

30/3/07 4:35 PM  

<< Home