Saturn Through the Twelfth House
Whenever a Saturn transit occurs it will be related to the natal placement of the planet, the 10th house, and the ruler of the 10th with accompanying aspects. With each transit, an individual is ideally getting closer to realization of her life's goals. The hardships occur to delete whatever is blocking this passage, although the defenses have been necessary thus far.
The transit of the 12th house of the wheel is especially important in preparation for a rebirth as Saturn crosses the ascendant, the driver of our lives, and a new cycle of worldy achievement begins. The 12th house is the infinite karmic closet holding everything -- past, present, and future. Saturn here brings hidden factors into reality so the individual can confront the deep problems and remove the obstacles impeding progress. Sometimes these complications seem like they're of cosmic proportion. Loss, tragedy, sorrow, weakness, inertia, helplessness, and a general feeling of being overwhelmed often arrive as the result of Saturn's presence here. Age old complexes can surface, old wounds, and unnamable feelings. One can be at a loss not knowing what to do. Waiting and suffering continue, while the magic rescue fails to come. Saturn is famous for relentlessness.
Years ago I lived in an apartment complex with others in a family-like situation. My downstairs neighbor was the first to get the transit. She was an Aquarius rising with a Moon-Saturn conjunction in Sagittarius in the 10th. Sure enough, her mother died. She was devastated. Afterward, however, she emerged with a new feeling that the presence of her mother prevented...Moon-Saturn blocking the joy of Sagittarius. The release of the sorrow was necessary in the cosmic 12th house way in order to go on to her detached Aquarius incarnation, with her birds and her independence.
The next one to get it was another downstairs gal with Capricorn rising and Saturn in Cancer in the 7th house of marriage. She was given away by her mother at birth believing she couldn't care for the infant. The other siblings remained, the tragedy of her life. Her search was for a partner to give her the lost security. Through the transit she drank heavily, cried incessantly, and pleaded with everyone to relieve her sorrow to no avail. After the tears dried and Saturn moved along, her new husband arrived. As far as I know, they are still together.
Then came my turn. Aries rising with Saturn in Leo. My Leo husband died after 25 years together while Saturn was in Aries marking the start of my solo life as an independent artist. I was in completely unknown territory, alone, and terrified. He was a noisy man and when he died my world suddenly became dead silent. That's when the psychotic episode arrived. I started hearing all the refrigerators in the aparment building in a hum I could barely endure. I'd get home and at first everything was fine, then the humming would start and I couldn't escape. No exit is often part of the 12th transit. Fortunately this didn't last long. I recovered my normal hearing and then it came time to move. But this is where it got interesting. I moved to another apartment in late spring and when the heat arrived, a hum came with it that was 100 times worse than the original one. Only this one was REAL. The huge industrial air conditioning units, unbeknownst to me when I moved in, were right above my bedroom. Reality? Saturn was just out of my 12th and in my 1st. I moved to the 2nd floor. I was in the war zone for the next couple of years, and Saturn in Aries through the 12th had mobilized me in the most basic of trainings I'd ever known heretofore. This was a taste of my new life of survival alone and it worked. I'm alive.
Not all people have the challenges others do when Saturn transits the 12th, but the experiences can be overwhelming, unfamiliar, and without resolution until the blocks to the beginning of the next 30 year cycle are dismantled, and building with a new potency can commence. Saturn removes ego defenses that have been in place for a long time and leaves the person vulnerable until the new structure is gradually built in the 1st quadrant. The frightening part can be the confusion since these blocks, themselves, are often unknown until Saturn arrives, and sometimes one never knows. The malaise can be unidentifiable and some people despair of ever finding direction again, but we continue and the cycle starts once more with all the new complications in tow.