South Node in Pisces or the Twelfth House

The  South Node in Pisces depicts a dependence on chaos, confusion, dissipation, delusion, deception, and an overall aversion to reality. What was once a combination of inspired dreams, sublime beauty, and idealism has turned into escapism, victimization, self-undoing, and an addiction to suffering. This native is now ready to abandon the fog of Pisces in exchange for the distillation, clarity, purity, and perfection of the North Node in Virgo.

Chaos and confusion. While the Pisces South Node used to be comfortable with the flow of life as is, adopting a "whatever" view of events, they now feel disorientated bobbling about the waves and currents. They seek ballast, grounding, and firm footing to offset the turbulent swirl they are so accustomed to. They have always surrendered to circumstance, sacrificing ego and control, trusting that the currents would land them wherever safely. What was once natural movement is now irrational and random motion requiring their intervention. Letting go becomes hanging on and directing. The comforts of chaos seek the predictable alignments of order.

Illusion, delusion, and escape. The unreal world of Pisces used to be blessed escape for the SN Piscean. Fantasy made much more sense and was supremely desirable to the reality others inhabited. Whether the illusions reflected a beautiful scenario or sent them into completely delusional states made little difference. It was all preferable to solid, unmoving, unglittering phenomena. These node-holders were able to create great things out of their visions, but now their palette has emptied and a more organized and real sequence beckons. Escape has been mastered.

Dissolution and dissipation. As the cosmic solvent, Pisces liquefies, vaporizes, and disperses solid matter. The Pisces SN is used to things falling apart. Ambitions are often unclear anyway so they easily let it all go. Destructive living habits were not problematic in their alternate dream world, but now inhabiting the earth realm and its held together reality seems like a logical next step. Where worldly pursuits once seemed neither here nor there, they now have allure and validity.

Paranoia and other ailments of the psyche. The infinite imagination of Pisces SN that trusted and surrendered to the universe now feels uncomfortable and questions the guidance they once reveled in safely. Mistrust has moved in, motivations can be suspect, and even clear analysis of the world around them becomes inviting. The nebulous realm of psyche and all its confusions longs for rock solid somatic endeavors and ritual to ground the emotions and create physical well being.

Compassion, self-sacrifice, martyrdom. While once willingly immersed in human suffering and its universal inevitably, the sacrificial service that came naturally now seems ineffective. The tragic stories laced into their consciousness have become burdensome and the act of self immolation becomes useless in alleviating others' sorrows. They now see that they and others can solve these dilemmas with real specific actions attentive to details in each life rather than a blind  belief in a savior or rescuer to deliver them from reality.

Drugs, alcohol, retreat. In the escape from painful reality Piscean South Nodes know the depths of substance abuse, either from their own experience or that of others. They are familiar with the urge to spend life in jails, health facilities, other areas of confinement, or even in monastic retreats to avoid the tediums of daily life. They used to see these escapes as meaningful distortions in the otherworlds they inhabited or effective crutches in their perceived crippled states. They often spent life helping other people in these settings sometimes delaying the time to help themselves. The dissipation of Pisces is now turning toward health rituals and body maintenance. The otherworlds  are now imbued with the suffering previously attributed to reality.

Saint, sinner, and duality. The truth of good and evil co-existing in human behavior was formerly understood and accepted by those with the Pisces SN. They were well aware of the struggle between saintliness and and the degradations of sin. The highest and the lowest aspects of human life were recognized and tolerated naturally. But now these extremes seem like an exaggeration and an unnecessary approach to a longed for normal back and forth and up and down. The turbulent emotional ride on the Piscean current is done. The wisdom has been gained, the compassion has been spent, and the knowledge of life's vicissitudes is complete. A more earth bound and calmer life is ready to manifest with ego and will poised to be developed in creating a good working life for themselves as productive participants in society, not as its saviors or its chaotic upenders.

Sorrow, despair, and emotional excess.  SN Pisceans are more attuned to suffering than all others. Their sorrow is ancient, their despair based on long experience. They once were skilled at enduring these pains and helping others through their own. Now these feelings have become excessive and futile. They don't provide relief, rescue, and visionary escape as before. This node is ready to trade in despair for mental acuity and intelligent analysis. Sorrow and disillusionment become part of the emotional whole rather than the mainstay.

Self undoing and ego.  Where surrender to forces around them and the role of victim once satisfied their longings, the Pisces South now is prepared to recognize they have a say in the sequence of events they encounter. They are no longer nebulous nothings pushed around by circumstance. They begin to see that ego is a fine instrument to use as guidance through their once scattered lives. They are ready to put themselves back together, in the order they choose, and proceed willfully and consciously through the prevailing unknown. The Virgo North Node with its crystalline logical perfection can now be the sanctuary for the formerly dissolute, disordered Pisces South Node.

The South Node in Pisces has mastered amorphous spirituality, self-sacrifice, and emotional depth, and is free to move on to mental order, practical spirituality, and an embrace of the physical in pursuit of perfection at the North Node in Virgo.