South Node in Aries or the First House

The South Node in Aries is a preoccupation with independence or dominance, resulting in loneliness that often seems impossible to erase, no matter how many relationships the natives get into and out of, or even stay in. There is a fear of exposing weakness and they push people away, only to find themselves wanting to be with them again. They want companionship but they undermine the commitment habitually. There is too much preoccupation with the self.

Me-ism. The problem with SN Aries is the reflection of themselves they see everywhere. Always about Me. But they've seen enough. They know themselves. And they know it's time to curtail this self-absorption and look at others as they appear and not as mirrors, or verifications of their own identities. They often come back to this lonely look at the self, unfulfilled. Even when they act like they are fascinated with the other, deep down they often are still looking at the Me. People sense it and separations result, sending the SN back to isolation.

The Exit. The SN Aries comes in, often bounding, but keeps a steady eye on the exit sign. Their independence is threatened by the indication of real relationship and the entrapment is the horror. Racing ahead too fast, and leaving them in the dust can also be a practice of this nodeholder.
Deep down they know they are kind and lovable, but often they end up appearing otherwise, or are on the receiving end of otherwise, to assure the escape back to the self. One foot already out the door when the shoe drops.

Anger and Conflict. Often a lot of it. It can manifest in many ways, or not overtly at all. Anger was often the tone in the family while growing up, even if unexpressed, and sometimes frustration with the selfish demands of a parent. Aries is the warrior and I think these people know the danger, but still respond to the battle cry, the excitement, even feeling they've battled enough. They would like to sheathe the sword.

Bravado. Sometimes the SN Aries goes overboard in proving muscularity, bravery, and the ability to take hard knocks and deal with anything. They would love to develop the gentle, the pliant, the accommodating, the aquiescent. They know this isn't weakness, but the SN pull makes it seem that way as they remember their age old skill at winning and conquering. Hurt or be hurt can also result, as the SN likes to prove it can bear the hardship with its toughness. The competetiveness of Aries is another road to this node's separateness. How they would truly love to relinquish the winning, top dog role and find equality and shared triumph.

The SN Aries is a master of strength and survival, full of vitality and life force, and firm in identity. They no longer need to prove this. The way it plays is entirely unique in each case, with all the accompanying factors. Next will be the North Node in Libra.