South Node in Scorpioor the Eighth House

The SN in Scorpio is primed for disaster even if the passage of years diminishes the occurrences of these catastrophes. There is an excessive attachment to pain and crisis and a heightened emergency preparedness that now merely drain her energy. The fires of hell have been Home Sweet Home and agony-ecstasy the customary state of being. She is so habituated to growth through suffering, that when peace arrives, she stays tense and frightened, anticipating the return of pain, and fearing stagnation and boredom. The extremes of visceral sensation have been so intrinsic to her vitality that she misses the median where the cultivation of simple pleasures in an earthly garden awaits. She knows she must calm down.

Panic and turbulence. The Scorpio SN has spent her life playing the supporting part in other people's most difficult experiences. The first one to the hospital bed or the jailhouse to rescue those she is in bondage to. The telephone ringing sends adrenalin coursing through her body and her heart pumping wildly. Even the wind rattling the doors reminds her of impending doom. Thoroughly familiar with the deeper parts of the character, she now wants to meet the selves closer to the surface and connected to the senses for no other reason than pleasurable sensation, minus the emotional storms.

Hurt. The SN Scorpio has vast experience exchanging interpersonal hurts, but now they no longer serve a healing purpose. She pushes to the extreme, exploring every deep crevice in hopes of finding the relief that now eludes her in this continuing sharing of torments. She wants to leave well enough alone along with the sleeping dogs, but impulse drives her to turn over yet another rock, even knowing exactly what she'll find. She can no longer help people with their pain as she once did, but has a calling to experience her own pleasure instead.

Envy, resentment, and jealousy and revenge. The personal intrigues that most everyone is embroiled in have become useless to this nodeholder, although she is a master of them and finds herself involved even when she knows better. She would like to be free from these dramas, but the lure remains and frustration builds when she finds herself there once again. Longing for what other people have is senseless, playing one against the other is fruitless, and revenge will do nothing but bring pain upon herself. She realizes she should be entirely absorbed in productive ventures of her own, and wants more that anything to stay out of other people's business when these exchanges are going on. Personal gain and self satisfaction are her only real options.

Witchcraft and the spook factor. The SN Scorpion has ancient memory of brutality and abuse of power in the name of mysticism and religion. She knows what people can do to frighten other people. She's been in contact with these misuses of psychology and senses when they are being employed, knowing the best tactic is to stay far away. More than anyone this native wants paranoia to be abandoned in herself and in everyone around her. The use of fear as control over people is particularly abhorrent to her, but when she tries to intervene, she finds herself unable to help stop it. The best thing is probably avoidance and cultivation of calm and confidence, staying gracefully out of harm's way.

Merging and bondage. The abandonment of boundary is one of the hardest habits for the SN Scorpio to break. Her survival used to depend on being completely tied to another and support was achieved through self sacrifice and abnegation of personal desire and will. Some even can feel the shackles of bondage almost physically. There were payoffs in earlier times in this exchange, but now complete release is the only way for her to thrive in her life. The fear of being cut off from the source can be terrifying, but if it doesn't happen by choice, it will often happen by force. It really doesn't matter as long as she realizes that the only way to fulfillment is through self support. Ultimately she will welcome the release.

Crime, abuse, torture, and prurient rituals. One of the worst memories this SN has is of human behavior at its lowest levels. She understands fully what the creature is capable of and has probably experienced some of it first hand. She sees though everything and knows what people are up to. No amount of superficial image making can fool her and trust is hard to come by. She knows the bottom will drop out eventually in many cases. This serves her well as protection but the goal should be preventing the worst from actualizing. Either staying away or getting out in time works best. The more she masters this, the more she finds trustworthy companions, and enjoyment with herself. She no longer needs to watch incessantly and decry the human behavior that everyone else does because she recognizes how each and every one is capable of the same thing. Her best recourse is to let what trouble needs to come in, go away just as quickly. Letting it go by is the best, understanding that the others have to learn through experience what she already knows. She knows too much.

Death. This SN has knowledge of this feared and inevitable human event more than most, but now her involvement can sometimes impede the learning of others. Sometimes she even stops attending family deaths and funerals, since others need to take over the task and experience every aspect themselves. She is no longer needed and her development is not dependent on this learning. While people rush momentarily to the side of the bereaved, the SN knows exactly how short lived this will be, and how little they really want to be involved. But they will be. Her job is done. She's accompanied others enough through death. The ones in the classroom are really more effective, anyway. Some of them.

What's mine is yours. This person often gives everything to the other. The fear and neediness lead her to throw all of her life force into relationship, not to mention all her belongings. She sacrifices things she loves and wants in the rush to pour energy into her partner. She really doesn't see any reason to withold assuming she will be cared for with this arrangement, but when she finds herself on her own, she realizes how much she has neglected her own wants. Some don't couple and do live and provide for themselves, but once the floodgates open, they usually give it all.

The emotional slaughterhouse. The manipulations have reached their limit with this node and she is ready for an end to psychoanalysis as the way of coping with all the interpersonal agonies she's so accustomed to. People will do what they do and heal their wounds in their own time at their own paces. What was once necessary involvement has become interference as she prepares now to take things as they are, forgoing the trip down into the depths of depraved human behavior. A ticket for a pleasant cruise is waiting at the desk when she is ready.

Magic. Everbody loves magic, but the SN Scorpio has relied on it too much. Seeking signs, psychic advice, portents, spirit guides, and all these things to make decisions and moves is no longer always wise. If she wants something, she should just go and get it. Not wait for some mysterious sign. Same thing with avoidance. She can now trust her own instincts and judgements. She is leaving the mystical world to some extent to join the pure sensation of the empirical. She's coming down to earth, and no longer needs otherworldly dependence. She can certainly still enjoy the fantasy world, but should not make her life decisions based on this.

Healing. She is a master. The world of shamans, surgeons, witch doctors, medicine men, magicians and all assorted healing technicians was hers. Now it is time to leave the job to those coming in, as she learns self centeredness and detachment from the pain of those around her. Fearing insensitivity, she still responds to the cries, but the truth is, she really can't help them as much as those learning and yearning to share these experiences. What can go unrecognized is the fact that by attending to herself, she will continue to heal, but in a much easier way. The SN in Scorpio is off the hook. Even her own.

The SN in Scorpio is bringing her skills in healing and supporting other people through trauma, back to heal herself while she minds her own business, and enjoys life in her own dimension of peace, pleasure, and contentment. How? Next with the NN in Taurus.