Years ago I lived in Santa Fe, New Mexico for a while. I was singing in the clubs and accompanying myself on guitar at the time, but I bought an old upright piano for 200 bucks just like this one, and fell in love with it. Day and night I played and wrote in the weird funky adobe brick Victorian house I lived in. I couldn't part with the piano so I dragged it to Colorado. I finally had to let it go when the squeeze in the city apartment got to be a little too much. I replaced it with a wonderful electric piano.
The piano has a majesty about it to me. These big babies fill the body with sound, vibrate the chest, and roll the floor under the feet. Great to sing with, awful to carry on a gig. I had to give in to practicality but I will always remember.
Besides. The piano of my dreams is in Longmont, Colorado right now. I'm keeping my eye on it.
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"Mama wants to barrelhouse all night long..."
My first piano was a big ol' upright. Then I inherited my grandmother's spinet. I don't have room for it in my 750 square feet, so my older brother's got it now.
My little brother has the baby grand of my dreams. And a whole special room to house it. Little brat. Little Taurus brat.
spinet? spinnet?
too early to spell. I must be the first time zone to get up. I'm always the first on.
figured it was some sort of transition from right brain sleep mode to the "put the coffee in the pot like this" left brain reality.
My brain doesn't really kick into gear until I've been up for about an hour & half . . . but it's amazing what I can accomplish on autopilot!! I keep telling my Aries (who is one of those "morning people") that attempting to get a valid opinion before the coffee hits and before that hour & 1/2 period is up, is just not happening!!! :-)
kj!! With the adjusted birth time, your ASC is very closely conjunct my NN in Gemini . . . no wonder your writing & manner inspire me! Another one of those leetle synchronicities that are a common occurrence around here . . :-)
"The Black Stare" is an accurate description . . . either that or "blank"......
Kad's poem in: Berries For Breakfast
is a must read.
DITTO!!!!!
CASEY!!!!
You play piano!!!???
kj, the new birth time could explain why you didn't relate to taurus rising.
Kad's poem in: Berries For Breakfast
is a must read.
This is so much a part of my dream. To be with people whose natural expression includes such beautiful poetry. I love it when there is no distinction, and people feel comfortable enough to express these vulnerabilities as part of the daily exchange.
I'm honored.
Thanks kj.
The nodes are the most important part of the chart and I'm going to go into depth on them soon. You will be amazed.
I never think of wearing blue, but maybe I should.
That's another good one kj!
Everybody here is in complete agreement about how much you've added. I am getting to know you in an entirely new way.
It's "amazing" to come in anew and be accepted so quickly. That says everything about you and everyone here.
We make choices. Either we condemn people or find their value and treasure it. Hate or love. Everyone's decision.
Cancer planets usually make for good people instincts. We like them or not and can go by that.
You express it all the time kj. That's why the positive response. The give. Your honesty. Your enthusiasm. Your soul.
For me, your perspective has verified why I love the people here so much. The special something they have.
I think a lot of is the soul quality that we've been missing in the public arena. But we're the public too. Somebody's got to take the lead and we can energize and remember here.
It's just beginning.
Don't worry about not being able to say it all. If you are in fact Gemini rising, that says a lot!
I know what you mean about energy, kj. As a Cancer I run out all the time. Don't like it, but what can I do? Dexedrine is out.
Sometimes those extreme dips are just the thing to reroute and find a new battery.
The move was just the final pounding.
That says it all. The "final" pounding.
Welcome to the upswing.
OMG!! Me too, kj!!!
And from the moment the internet connection was up, I saw that what I'd been engaged with online was in even worse shape than before. Locked, negative situations, people, and attitudes.
Quite honestly, it scared the bejeezes out of me.
I experienced a new kind of fear around all of this and was at a loss and paralyzed myself for too long. I usually walk away from these things but something had me trapped. I can only think the lesson was to face the fear and move on when ready.
A lot of us are moving although some fear always is there. But I think we are ready to reinforce the condfidence. Haven't we earned it?
Hey!!! This IS the real world!
They're psychotic out there. I always new that and that had me down when I was participating. It's psychotic to torture, murder, and scream hatred on the blogs in complete ignorance of the fact. So psychotic. I'm glad they at least can drive out there. But it sounds like the psycho ward or the monkey house at the zoo with all the shrieking.
the strings of light were not only visible, they were commonplace!
I love this.
The astrology is magnificent and I'm taking my time. You will love it all.
Kj.
I feel so much like you do with the Aries rage and wanting a better society along with the Cancer hurt. This experience has affected me way more than I can say. I think we can process this together and release the negatives we absorbed by continuing to talk about it and understanding it was something we needed.
Aries don't like to be trapped! I think we are still quite wounded possibly from trying to escape and not being able to. But we are free now. The full release will take time but please, kj, express your feelings. I identify so much and I want this out of my system. There's a new path right up ahead and I mean to be ready.
OMG kj!
The utter BS of it all. I was just trying to rally myself, and there you were, saying what I was feeling. And you were the only one saying it!
The utter BS is so right. Nothing new at all. I've always been the only one saying it. The denial is beyond my comprehension.
It's been me against the crowd forever, but this is what is so curious now. You all are not fleeing. For the first time. Something is going on.
I've seen the good in people all along but groupthink often ruins their good sense and judgement. So I've stayed away from the group until now. This is completely different and perplexing. I've got a lot to learn.
With your North node in Capricorn, kj, which I will talk about more, I think you have a destiny in the world and can bring some improvement. Now it is being reworked. In two years the calling will be clear.
The one thing to work on is defending yourself internally against the emotional pain. You don't have to identify with all of it. To be effective out there, I think you have to stay focused on yourself and society and let the personal bitterness slide. Don't argue with them. Don't fall into the manipulative trap.
You have a lot of ideas that can be effective and I think that is ahead as you renew yourself and recharge.
We'll go into the astrology of it as we go.
You definitely have a public calling and it will fulfill you in time, especially as you incorporate your spiritual knowledge with your technique. This is coming up soon.
Please see if you can get a definte birth time. It's in the county records.
The truth is vital, kj, and I think our country is more prepared for some of it now. I do think our leadership will soon improve which will help our cause.
I'm learning how to speak the truth only as it applies to the situation and try to keep a hold of my tongue when it will be useless. This is hard. I want it all to come out but it has to be measured as if in the chem lab. This applies to my own truth too.
the willingness for the passion(s) of others here to supply the missing pieces, or the lift the pieces from shadow, or introduce the pieces completely... whether a fragment, a stone, a poem, a thread, a painting...
It's a mandala.
Very very well put.
I was like this as a child when I watched my first group and the BS....my family. I called them on it and they did OK. They lauded my honesty, but defended themselves by saying they often didn't understand what I was saying.
In the end, my father admitted a lot of the truth before he died when we were alone at the end of his life for three months. He said he never knew me before. He was surprised.
In the light of this, I think I can see the others input as a vital part of the mandala.
not to mention the lure of power and position. All in the name of "democracy."
Amen.
To me, kj, political is this too. It all comes down to self policing, love thy neighbor, and learning from the smallest unit how to organize a group.
I don't mind going back to square one at this point. I'm not interested in the current leaders, they are finished, and I have nothing to say about them.
There are too many places to get all the editorials and they are full of shit, anyway. The experts. I see very few intelligent analyses of politics in America, even off the blogs. So until someone calls it accurately I'm not listening.
In the meantime, I want a clear picture myself and I like talking with politically knowledgeable people outside of the crowd.
When the next Pres{:-)} takes over, I'll see. I'll give him a chance.
Like the begger in the story, and quite conscious of being the begger in the story, I was able to make eye contact with a person I believed in
So accurate kj. The beggar. The humiliation. Although a real beggar has pride.
I know exactly what you mean about moving past this. I was very very disturbed about my dependency and illusion, although I think he will be next and will do well. Still, my position has changed. He is in perspective now, thank god.
I'll go out on a limb and say I'm fairly sure I completely understood what you were saying on that blog on that day.
I could not believe you were there and caught this kj. It was a moment of reckoning for me.
I've reached my limit. I have no more patience for people who think they want better politics and can't even look at their own icons truthfully.
Plus the big Sucker Factor. Everyone keeps falling for their bluff. Iran, for example. It's hideous. When they all fell into line about the war on terror I simply gave up.
"Kill the terrorists". One more time and I would have to get sick.
"CASEY!!!!
You play piano!!!???"
Oh, yes. And organ. And used to play french horn. My mother's family is all musical. Three things run in that family. Music, mysticism, and teaching.
I'm a total chicken though about performing, so eventually gave up that dream when I was a senior in high school.
I'm deeply into classical music. In fact, I was so disgusted with popular music in the '80s, I only listened to Mozart for most of the decade. I heart Wolfie. He can send me into alpha states...and delta states...on up the cosmic ladder.
And kj? I love to see your posts, rapid-fire, one after another.
Boy, you guys went to town. I checked in before I left work and there were 13 posts here and now there are 54! lol. Zoom.
Make that 62! zoom. zoom
I do not trust what has happened around him.
I don't like it either, but that's the way it is.
I look at it this way now. he's the best choice for now. He's a politician and plays the games they all do, but he's skilled in foreign policy and we need that next. I'll be pleased with hin in the WH but I already feel my natural resentment of the manipulation that they all have to do. I'm back to my anti-sucker stance. But I'll be OK with him in charge. Relieved.
Casey!!!!!
Full Moon in Aries, man!
Barrelhouse Mammas!
Get that floor rolling, Mamma!!!!!!
All through the process, Kj, your posts gave me hope. They were zenlike in their effect and I knew there were good elements about, even if ignored as they so often are. I think the public will soon realize just a little bit. Hopefully as this terror thing abates and reality hits.
"Now now, kj, that Aries of yours is showing. Be quiet, you're scaring everyone. Yes, I know you're a truthteller, but they're not ready for it yet."
One of the many reasons i just love Aries is they are Truthtellers. Don't you ever stop! You & jm with your Aries need to just keep on walking out & being yourselves . . . that's what true leadership is all about. Hey, I got your back along with your S/O . . . nobody in their right minds really wants to cross two pissed off Scorps . . . :-) We bite without warning . . . HARD!~
I know kj!!!!!!!!! You got it on the terrorists!
OMG!!!
nobody in their right minds really wants to cross two pissed off Scorps . . . :-) We bite without warning . . . HARD!
HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!
Forewarned. Can I get you anything, neith, my dear?
Cup of herbal tea, perhaps? A cookie?
I couldn't believe how they freaked!!!!!!!!!
What a buch of sissies!!!!
Omg. Are we missing the fray, kj? Tell me it isn't so.
I'm afraid everyone here was subjected to my terror talk. They couldn't stand it either.
IT IS SO LUDICROUS!
It's just that i value what you & kj are doing & stand for so much... I feel protective of you! Just want to tell you to so!! hugs & smoochies!!! :-)
I think it's under the rug at the moment.
The whole damn thing really irritaes the hell out of me!
I love the English language and to have it reduced in public to terrorists, torture, and sex is unbearable!!!!
Call them gun toting madmen! Mustached warriors! Delerious men in the desert. Decapitating mothers! Anything! Just some variety.
Huge hugs to you neith! Need we say anymore about Aries!
I love the English language and to have it reduced in public to terrorists, torture, and sex is unbearable!!!!
Call them gun toting madmen! Mustached warriors! Delerious men in the desert. Decapitating mothers! Anything! Just some variety.
ROFL!!!! Now that's pure jm . .
:-)
Oh, BTW, kj.
Thank you ever so much for the poem! I think it kept me from going overboard.
OH MY GOD! This Aries is so hard to contain! And this is a tiny fraction.
Neith, how I wish I could REALLY let it rip!
You are so wonderful!
Now I must stop playing and go fix dinner . . . it's only 6 PM here! I'll drop by later . . . love you all!!! :-)
And ya know. I think I will credit you, kj, for getting me out of there. That's been done before, believe me. 86'd a time or two.
I once gave that aforementioned finger to a bar manager. Didn't have a Scorpio to save my ass either! I'm lucky to ne here in this peaceful paradise!
Well thank you kj for the appreciation. Not the usual result! But it has to be said. Crucify me, if need be. I'll get over it.
It wells up in my solar plexus and I know I'm going to blow. That's when I use prayer.
The water is a nice temperature, kj. Little blessings.:-)
Hey! That piano IS really something!
Play us another tune, Casey!
I know it helped.
Besides your glorious vitality is your genuine concern for a better world. No mistake. It has to help. The commitment is astonishing.
rapid fire postings! Good! I won't feel so embarrased when I do that, then.
Uuuuunh.... Raging Universe?
Uuuuunh.... Raging Universe?
umm, *duh*? not the sharpest knife in the drawer, here?
ROFL!
AND, we ain't just talking our passions here, we're manifesting those passions.
A hearty huge welcome, once again, dear kj.
good lord, I go off and eat something and you doubled the posts....
lol. Another song? How about my buddy Bruce who's quite political himself:
Padded with power here they come
International loan sharks backed by the guns
Of market hungry military profiteers
Whose word is a swamp and whose brow is smeared
With the blood of the poor
Who rob life of its quality
Who render rage a necessity
By turning countries into labour camps
Modern slavers in drag as champions of freedom
Sinister cynical instrument
Who makes the gun into a sacrament --
The only response to the deification
Of tyranny by so-called "developed" nations'
Idolatry of ideology
North South East West
Kill the best and buy the rest
It's just spend a buck to make a buck
You don't really give a flying fuck
About the people in misery
IMF dirty MF
Takes away everything it can get
Always making certain that there's one thing left
Keep them on the hook with insupportable debt
See the paid-off local bottom feeders
Passing themselves off as leaders
Kiss the ladies shake hands with the fellows
Open for business like a cheap bordello
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
See the loaded eyes of the children too
Trying to make the best of it the way kids do
One day you're going to rise from your habitual feast
To find yourself staring down the throat of the beast
They call the revolution
IMF dirty MF
Takes away everything it can get
Always making certain that there's one thing left
Keep them on the hook with insupportable debt
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
And they call it democracy
Mars is definitely on the loose. Thank god Venus is with him. Be back in a mo. A lot to cover.
Wow!
i am so glad we -all of us-are sharing this space creating the "mandala".
Reading your dialog jm & kj reminds me so much of my experiences during vietanm era. i was active as a student organizer.(had phone tapped, visited by IRS= pretty active) i grew so discouraged with my fellow man. Even my father couldn't understand. Figured if i couldn't reach my father who was aready anti-war then i was approaching this whole thing wrong.
When the war was winding down i moved on to the women's movement thinking working in a free women's clinic i could do more...i lived in a communal house at the time and my roomates saw me as pretty odd, separate from society. (well that has been true lifelong) The only people who understood me were my brother and my beloved. My beloved found it too scary to move away from the group, even though he himself shared common understanding at the deepest level. When my brother was killed i sank to the bottom for a bit- numb and knowing it...
Then a different approach presented, i simply began to align myself closer to what i sensed was my path and live it, not worrying about others or society, just who was near me, my family and those who i encountered. Art, Alternative medicine, homeschooling...making it up as i went along, it took about 20-30 years before i noticed that there were others joining in. Like those concentric circles you speak of jm, just a rock in the pond making waves.
A few minutes ago one of the bobcat kids, now a gangly adolescent came calling with a voice i've never heard. Zamma and i went to the window and there he was, he was calling us. He struted over to the water dish and drank watching us the whole time, lifting his head periodically to speak to us, eyes to eyes...i don't know exactly how it happened but my life has shifted so much from the "politics" of my early 20's trying to push things into form, to creating a life of my own peace and inviting those who live here to share in it. The animals have helped me see how self-centered i've been, thinking i could change others, i alone create nothing. I still need lots of help to see.
Just a thank you to all here for how you enrich my life, how you help me to see. Thank you.
Like those concentric circles you speak of jm, just a rock in the pond making waves.
Wow, is that ever profound... one to sleep on, that's for sure. :o) I find as I get older that more people are doing what I've been doing for awhile now. For example, the way some of us here were unsubbing from all kinds of lists and activist blogs. I did my part along with others to stir the pot pre and post 9/11, and now the momentum is getting going, so I feel like it's time to shift gears and start a new momentum.
Busy "laying eggs" this evening. I hope to finish this one this weekend. i could use a day off tomorrow but it's not to be.
Good night all!
Joe be sure and post a pict of that egg so we can see it...i'll be waiting, i just love 'em.
i don't know exactly how it happened but my life has shifted so much from the "politics" of my early 20's trying to push things into form, to creating a life of my own peace
I think this is the answer. So beautifully told, tseka. I've traveled a similar road and this is music to my senses.
The animals have helped me see how self-centered i've been, thinking i could change others, i alone create nothing. I still need lots of help to see.
I know this one. Thank you for this eloquent reminder. The animals are our guides, being true to their nature. One day man will be too.
I feel like it's time to shift gears and start a new momentum.
I'm with you joe. Laying eggs. LOL.
We can do it. Be the rocks.
My partner found a spiritual teacher in his early days when he wasn't even looking. Mrs Laird, and he always said her name with such respect. She taught him about the circles and then we talked about them for 25 years. I knew they were right.
But the deal was sealed a couple of years ago when I attended a candlelight vigil in the park for the dead soldiers in Iraq. Everyone sat in complete silence for an hour and it was profoundly moving. My first one, and shared silence was new to me.
At the same time there was a patriotic band concert going on across the meadow. They played America the Beautiful and as corny as it sounds, the harmony at that moment between the patriots and the candleholders was complete. Unforgettable.
The concert ended and as the people exited the park they passed the candles and the silence. They were irresistably drawn to the light and wanted to know what we were celebrating. Several came and joined us.
I knew then what the theory was all about. Granted, the concert goers were ordinary gentle folks but still, there is little chance that the light will be extinguished if it is held in the center and kept burning.
The animals have helped me see how self-centered i've been, thinking i could change others, i alone create nothing. I still need lots of help to see.
Ah yes - a common theme here too. What put paid to my thinking to change others was the combination of Pluto crossing my ASC and middle school age stepdaughters who BOTH have pluto on the ASC natally. We were in the process of huge power struggles when it dawned on me how incredibly stupid I was being. Stepped back, took lots of deep breathes and now we are friends. Of course, all being 15 yrs older helps . . . :-)
The thoughts, experiences and all the wonderful knowledge of astrology shared have so enriched my life. thanks . . .
and Joe . . . "laying eggs"!!!! yes, pictures!! I just keep grinning in sheer pleasure at the thought of you & those amazing eggs.
"...there is little chance that the light will be extinguished if it is held in the center and kept burning."
What beautiful statements you all have been making. :-)
You all know that changing oneself changes the external circumstances of one's life. It's like the center of the wheel causing movement at the outer edge.
Trying to change other people gets exhausting. Better just to demonstrate!
Not only that, Kadimiros, but I've found that simply being myself gives other people permission to be their genuine selves as well. Here's a good analogy:
It's as if people are holding their breath around one another, afraid to breathe and just be. When they meet someone who is breathing naturally, well, it stimulates them to start breathing as well. Amazing things can happen, then.
Of course, on the other hand, some people when faced with a naturally-breathing person, can feel threatened and try to destroy what they don't or can't comprehend.
It's an old pattern, one that needs to just fade.
There's a picture of my evening's work here.
All lines and polygons will be white from this point on, if that helps you understand what you're seeing.
You all know that changing oneself changes the external circumstances of one's life. It's like the center of the wheel causing movement at the outer edge.
Exactly! Very much like music with ever changing rhythms and speeds.
Joe, if you have time, please show us pictures of the whole sequence. The process of dying, then carefully waxing over each color to be kept is fascinating, at least to me! Do you decide what you want to do completely before you start, or do you just have a general plan & allow for change as you proceed?!
It's going to be a beauty, Joe.
Impressive. What a marvel of patient beauty and beautiful patience these designs are.
OMG! Gorgeous Joe! This is so exciting to see how the work progreses.
I still say I like your designs. In fact, this egg looks finished with my spartan taste!
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