The North Node in Sagittarius
and Now
I found the reaction to the North Node in Sagittarius to be unusally intense, and I attribute this to the current passage of Pluto through the center of our galaxy, and the end of Sagittarius. Everyone has a sector in their charts ruled by this sign, and all are experiencing a religious crisis to some degree, whether conscious or not. Certainly, the world is.As Pluto winds up the thirteen year transit this year, this entity is trying to connect to the deep and genuine faith that lies in all of us. The end can be especially noticeable, and this will be going on for the rest of the year. Jupiter is also in Sagittarius, adding to the influence.
The search for relationship with god has been going on throughout history. There is embarrassment in some, as you can see by the reluctance to even say the word. Some, of course, are the opposite. But it's personal, private, and emotional, and often difficult to express and share. However it manifests, people need to feel that they are protected in this vast, dark, unknown, and overwhelming universe. We can't live without faith.
It's in the human chip, this concept and belief. Hallucinogenic drugs all over the world repeat the same effect on consciousness, indicating a thought pattern that is common to all humans. It doesn't matter if the entity exists or not. The human mind perceives it.
Psilocybin creates a transcendent feeling, as the body gets lighter and rises up to a perceived god above. Energy leaves from the feet and goes out through the head, almost producing a levitation.
Peyote goes into the earth, inducing a heaviness in the body and a discovery of a force down and within, with a strong sensation of the earth's rhythm. Nausea and purge through vomiting, then transcendence, are part of the visceral experience as the human encounters spirit.
LSD brings connection through light and a prismatic break-up. The word "god" takes on meaning in this experience. In all of them, mythological creatures can be seen in normal things and people. The reactions are the same throughout the world, and the urge for union with other dimensions universal and forever.
I've had many encounters with this power, having so much Sagittarius in my chart, but this was one of the most vivid.
I'm an electronic musician with three drum machines I use as the core of my sound. One day, I was transferring all my drum patterns to a storage unit, and when I reloaded the rhythms they all came back in jibberish. Ten years of round the clock work and the most important thing in my life. My blood pressure shot to Uranus and my heart raced out of my body. I started hyperventilating and pacing around the room. I quickly returned to the machines and tried to load the information again. Back came all the rhythms just like I wrote them. I instantaneously dropped to my knees with a force of gravity never felt before, and a feeling of gratitude unmatched in my life to that point. The automatic drop to the knees was the revelation to me.While I have many tangible encounters with a protective entity, not everyone does. Yet I think we all sense it and would like to know. During these Pluto years, quantum theory has become very prominent as scientists are discovering more and more about what is actually happening out there beyond the earth. A space probe is going up that will try to find the end of the universe and ascertain its origins, and now they believe they can find the answers. This is what Sagittarius wants. Empirical evidence. Contact with the cosmos. Guidance beyond the personal. A familiarity.
Needless to say, I haven't moved the rhythms since. That much trust I don't have quite yet.
So as Pluto meanders toward Capricorn, and people witness the global mayhem, one wonders if something else is really taking care of things. Could be inside, outside, upside, sideways.....I certainly hope so.
posted by jm at 4:25 AM
22 Comments:
This reluctance you speak of is mirrored in America's endless culture wars about religion, God, and spirituality. Within these are the battles over whose god is "real," whose religious values get airtime and society's respect, etc., not to mention the sociopolitical "values" wars between social conservatives and their perceived enemies (you know, liberals, gays and feminists).
I would venture to guess that the extreme right/left polarization we've seen for the last 7 - 10 years is also being driven by Pluto in Sag.
Interestingly enough, this NN Sag discussion, following as it does on the heels of the NN Scorpio essay, has helped me better understand someone else in my life. He's 26 Sag 59'19" with a NN at 28 Scorpio 50'15". Even though his NN isn't Sag, the description here fits his natal Sag very well.
We used to argue over faith and religion, both of which are a source of strength for him and a source of cynicism for me. I attribute this in part to our age difference (he turned 50 on 12/18, another of my pool of much older friends!).
Another interesting tidbit is that he was stuck in financial and logistical limbo all summer long while his deceased parents' estate was being settled. Shortly after Jupiter entered Sag, everything shot forward in record time and now he's well on his way to making his first million. :o)
I have been following the NN in Sag discussions with great interest, and a peculiar sense of dislocation since it's my SN in Sag. "Been there, done that . . . what's the big deal?!" Very strange. Between 25 & 35 yrs, I was in the "God/Creator/ess" search and when the recognition set in God/Creator/ess is everywhere & everything, the veil of memory lifted & I was able to move on to more interesting pursuits - NN in Gemini. :-)
Could having Uranus widely conjunct my NN have contributed to getting the NN lessons early? Possibly. What is far more interesting to me is the larger picture that's unfolding with each Node analysis. We all have our part in that big picture . . . critical part with no one being more important than another. Goes back to the synergistic whole . . .
I would venture to guess that the extreme right/left polarization we've seen for the last 7 - 10 years is also being driven by Pluto in Sag.
It sure is.
The problems are not in the faith itelf, but in he hypocisy. That's part of this transit too.
Could having Uranus widely conjunct my NN have contributed to getting the NN lessons early?
This is what I see frequently. We do the NN early, revert to the SN for many years, and maybe back to the NN at the end.
I was independent with ny NN at first, then I got in my long relationship, and now I'm independent again, but with more understanding.
Everyone manifests the energies entirely differently.
Amazing joe. The Jupiter and your friend. Thank you for the info.
You're welcome. He's also a Gem ASC and talks too much. :o)
And I think I agree with your assessment that We do the NN early, revert to the SN for many years, and maybe back to the NN at the end because when I think about it, I was a talkative, happy and outgoing child. I intuitively think that when I hit age 6 or 7, the Saturnian qualities came into play. Then I was ruled by my SN until recently.
jm, I read with so much interest the whole discussion of your dream and Hel and the tao. I can relate so much to the privacy issues -- maybe because I've got some serious 12th house planets? The dream and the whole complex makes me wonder, not to get too psychological about it, how performing was for you when you were doing it more actively? I know in writing sometimes getting my work out too early has felt destructive. As in your dream which was so wonderfully interpreted, I get the feeling that there is a push/pull dynamic -- the urge to put work out, the knowlege that that the foundation is there, and the yet the sense that doing so will be possibly wounding. I could be projecting here, as these are some of my issues.
As to the NN Sag issues, what you said, and Joe affirmed, makes sense also in my case, of doing the NN early and then moving away from it again. Though I also feel something like neith in sensing god (though in my NN way, I'm hesitant to use that word) everywhere.
I also thought your discussion of hallucinogens was extremely interesting, and perhaps crucial to the ways in which people from all over the globe and through all time have experienced greater consciousness.
Juju, how wondeful! One of your incredible posts. I'm so glad you got the importance of the hallucinogenic situation.
The dream and the whole complex makes me wonder, not to get too psychological about it, how performing was for you when you were doing it more actively?
Awful, largely. Then the moments of ecstasy would come, when I went on automatic pilot and became a complete vehicle. People would let go and respond for real. The other times were a battle between getting and keeping their attention, and their desire to express their own selves. Not fun.
So I'm trying to become an expert in performance, so I can simply love the spotlight no matter what. Just want to keep getting into it like a wonderful hot bath.
It's all up to me.
I know in writing sometimes getting my work out too early has felt destructive.
Very very very important. I knew all along the time hadn't come, but I needed the experience. All the while knowing I had to keep going back to the drawing board.
It's especially important because when success comes there is a kind of lockdown, and you will be known for what you produce at that moment, no matter how hard you try to be inventive later on. So it's absolutely vital that we are sure of the product when that moment comes.
Eary success is not good.
the urge to put work out, the knowlege that that the foundation is there, and the yet the sense that doing so will be possibly wounding.
Juju, this is so truthful, and with your talent, so beautifully said.
Not only possibly wounding...definitely wounding. No way around this. But so what? It's the price. There comes a time when the work must have exposure in order to progress. You know it when it's time. The wounding is inevitable, and it frightens before we're ready.
But I do believe that when the time actually arrives, we are also prepared to endure the onslaughts.
Maybe a shielding, maybe an inner strength. maybe a bouncing field of protection. It's a good thing to think about in preparation. No matter how good the output is, there will be some who attack and desecrate. I agree that this was part of the dream.
Any ideas you have with your penetrating intelligence would be welcomed heartily. You're the Leo.
You are right about preparing for the wounding. I think there are two things (at least) to consider here -- one is that there are different degrees of sensitivity to others, and different degrees of success in public, but they don't necessarily correlate to the quality of the art. And the other is that if you are ( if one is) really happy and sure of the work, negative criticism is easier to shrug off. It's like that bitch discussion -- I know if what ways I may be a "bitch" and also the ways in which I am not a bitch, when someone whose character I don't particularly trust wants to insult me with that name, its not particularly meaningful or hurtful. Or, a plumber working here called me an "ice queen" which is so far from what I know myself to be I thought it quite funny and sort of flattering. But other times, when I have somehow not arrived where I wanted with my writing for example, the smallest word against it can make me completely cave in. Doubt seems to me often to go with intelligence -- though certainly not always -- it is something I respect -- but it is also something that has to be shed, at least in part, down the line. You speak with real authority in this blog, so I suspect it can carry to all areas of your life.
When it comes to the "Great Spirit" I finally came to a thought that felt right to me. Some things are so big, belief is not necessary. They just are. It suits me, and when my child asked me that's what I told him.
Astrid
Fascinating juju, and you are so right about the self doubt being variable. I have tons of it, and it comes and goes.
I don't know the answer to this, but you made something clear right now.
The authority I speak with here stems from my confidence in my astrological skill. I have no doubt in this area. When others' doubt comes in, it might bother me a little bit due to natural human reaction, but the shrugging off you talked about is easy. So maybe you are right. Just a question of confidence.
but it is also something that has to be shed, at least in part, down the line.
I believe so. maybe that's why we have it in the first place. To develop skill then experience the thrill of releasing the doubt.
I look at Saturn in the chart for his self doubt. That's where we are building skill and eventually should have solid confidence, unaffected by the outer flux.
People see a reflection of themselves when they look at us. The "ice queen plumber" could be having trouble in his life with a cold woman. No way of knowing. It's all so confusing. Even if there is a cold streak in you, it shouldn't pose problems being eclipsed by the Leo warmth. In fact some cool reserve is good with this. The mix-up comes when the onlooker sees an exaggeration of a natural characreristic due to his own issues.
So maybe as a performing artist, the best thing to do is develop a detachment from their opinions. Be our own judges.
Even when that frisson comes with a moment of criticism, it will go. I have a tendency to cling to these, but only because of my self-doubt.
The confidence I have in my strological skill and this expression here is something I'm hoping will carry over to other parts of my life. I think if we just put it out, as astrid says, things will take care of themselves. It's the paralysis of self doubt that really is self-defeating. Normal fluctuations should be acceptable.
Some things are so big, belief is not necessary
Sheesh, astrid. Bulls-eye.
I feel like I just wandered onto to the buffet of the Great Spirit itself. Every comment lately has been so full of substance I can't help but think there is a connection to the source of giving, all for our taking if we want it, as we dispense. Something I've always felt. Give and take.
I have struggled with this jm. I've been told that if I just step out there, gifts will present themselves, but I must step out.
It's true.
Sensitive, creative, and perhaps empatic people tend to shy away from too much exposure, but in doing that, we can all too easily miss our opportunities. In truth, we are afraid of the power of our own being. That's why I so love to remind myself as I did you as well jm, to keep on trekking.
Astrid
Oops, that should have been "empathic". I only wish I were a typist. ;-)
In truth, we are afraid of the power of our own being. That's why I so love to remind myself as I did you as well jm, to keep on trekking.
This is it astrid. The only really good astro reading I had was from a person like this, who didn't do it often, but did for me. That is exactly what she said about my chart and I knew she was right.
We're made with this sensitivity for artistic purposes, but maybe the raw sensation of the world feeds it too. I'm going to face it. Your constant reminders are wonderful. Never too much.
This is how I look at it, and why I incorporate Taoist thinking in my approach. I'm so glad this came up.
I know I'm going out there in a big way and always have. I also know that there is really no particular solution. Nothing works to ease the artistic longing. The desire to create a masterpiece. To surpass your own self.
I've always been philosophical about the results of recognition and have been trying to keep it in perspective. It's not the cruel world's fault, nor is it the fault of my oversensitivity. It's much bigger than that. All artists I know have had to deal most of all with the disappointment of not completely actualizing the infinity of their visions. A sorrow that won't be removed by worldy success. Not at all.
I know this completely now. I also know I will strive all my life. And I know that success can come or not. It's equal. Either way has plusses and minuses. To labor in obscurity with complete freedom, or enjoy the ego warming of others' adoration. I'll still be the same struggling visionary. So I will see where my desires lead.
There's a lot of reason for the fear of exposure.
When people witness the first light in cave, they say that never have they seen shimmer and beauty like that. Once the light comes, it never again has that quality. This is part of the sacrifice, so it's no wonder that artists are caught between a stalagmite and a stalactite.
Maybe this is the meeting of Saturn and Neptune now. The earthly structure and the shimmering vision. Both are compromised, but that's not to say that what is created from this union won't be equal.
Every morning when I awaken, my cat is always there looking at me from his sleepy state. We are connected, and when I open my eyes, so does he, and we look at eachother. Each morning, he is astonishingly beautiful, and luminous.
Astrid
It is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things
Henry David Thoreau
It is a characteristic of wisdom not to do things
JM
That's interesting astrid. I've noticed, too, how beautiful things look upon awakening. It's the dark interlude that renews the luminescence.
I wonder how that can be translated to the presentation of the art work.
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