South Node in Taurus or the Second House

The South Node in Taurus is an habitual clinging to attachments that prevent the leaps and bounds of the revolutionary changes they know they want. They plod along with the status quo, often doing things the hardest way, finding it difficult to release and make the clean breaks necessary to move into the unknown and find fulfillment. The material realm is their safety net that prevents passage into the spiritual realms they know are waiting for them, if they could only make the required sacrifices. They fear losing their grip.

The grip. Baggage comes with us on our journeys, but the Taurus SN takes the biggest bag possible. Filled with things they don't need, they are weighed down with the excess, but find it difficult to eliminate. This doesn't mean objects, necessarily, just the burden of carrying around what doesn't really satisfy them anymore....things, people, ideas, jobs, houses, everything. What's mine is mine forever. The age-old memory of a secure grasp is what holds them back from opening and receiving an even greater security.

Fear of poverty. Financial control. SN Taureans have an ancient terror of being in want, and in this life, they must have financial control 'at all costs'. They often say they are afraid of not being able to pay the bills even when fully employed with a hefty bank account, and sometimes residing in a million dollar home. Many work overtime to keep the imaginary wolves from the door. The bill collector is the devil around every corner.

Security, comfort, and self reliance. These nodeholders have a compulsion to support themselves, often finding it next to impossible to relinquish their self-sufficiency and melt into the supportive embrace of others, no matter how much the others truly want to help them. Even when they appear to accept this help, they withold trust, and stay stubbornly self-centered.They cling to the security they know and prefer cushioning to the sometimes agonizing upheaval of real change.

Prostitution. Taurus SNs know everything there is to know about the exchange of money. They understand fully the dirty dealings and just what is takes to make a buck. Sometimes I think they were there at the ancient temples when the game heated up, and they know how money is bartered for sex, both overtly and subtley, and used as a psychological tool to manipulate, dangle and humiliate. They know what the mortgage holder is really about. There is often a world-weariness in this pursuit of financial security.

Self worth. These people have spent many years establishing their value and putting a price on it, but while they know this from their own perspective in practical terms, they are sometimes unsure of their value in other ways, and to different types of people. They can overestimate or sometimes come up short. Comparisons can cause them distress until they recognize what others have to offer and merge these talents with their own, releasing some of the pressure to work hard to prove themselves, as the basis of their self-worth undergoes complete re-working.

Appetites. The translation of sense impressions to physical desire and an urge to possess and consume can lead the SN Taurus to a life of so-called pleasures that really don't provide contentment. While not always over-doers or collectors of too many commodities, they still know that the appetite for the non-material offers the rewards they are really seeking. If only they could take the packed grip with them.

Resistance to change. Taurus SNs often speak of the wonders of change, and even appear to make them, but so many times they don't change in the fundamental ways that would bring them new life and joy. They are reluctant to merge with new experience fully, and frequently find themselves back where they started. They know pain is part of the process of transforming, but sometimes even after experiencing pain, they hold back from the full step out, feeling depleted, hurt, and shortchanged.

SN Taureans are masters of the material plane of existence, with a profound understanding of the earth and its pleasures. This grounding serves them well as they now seek emotional, psychological, and spiritual fulfillment, release from themselves, and deep merging with life's greatest offerings. Next: the North Node in Scorpio. A good one.